So chatting to a few friends last night made me think about doing this, and seeing as I am awake and the rest of the house isn’t. I am going to start this Mammoth Task.
What am I going to do? you say.
Well I am about to transfer my whole history from groups across the internet that I helped with and had help from over the last 12 years or so.
A lot of it was deleted, because MSN and their groups went away with the fairies. But, I kept everything, like the hoarder that I am. I still have real diaries, (ones you wrote in) from the age of 10 upwards. So this is my whole online journal, a very long connecting one, with all its trials and tribulations, hopes and dreams.
If anyone ever reads through it all, it will be a miracle. But the sites I was on, I had lots of friends and supporters. There are still a lot of them around today, but sadly there were some losses. Eating Disorders are like that, and I lost some very very good friends. (RIP) 😦
Maybe one day I might make a coherent film about it. At present it is what it is, a complicated inner sanctum of turmoil, highs and lows, picking up my feet and finally realizing that recovers is possible and staying safe and happy is more important than any other issues.
Onwards, and lets see how much I get done today.