Hair loss

It kinda goes without saying that I have a lot, lot of hair.

But when it starts to drop out in clumps, you know your body’s stopped supplying it with the means to grow, it happened at this point in 2007 and again in 2015, but it still doesn’t mean its a shock. The body knows how to look after and preserve itself, and rapid weight loss, 48lb is a lot in 14 weeks. 😭

I guess its almost a good thing I do have a ton of it, but already its feeling the strain. But three days of brushing out tons, hurts, it gets so knotted it stays where it wants in the morning and brushing it out ughh nightmare.

Where do I see myself going right now, sadly not to a good place. The years off to a rough start, covid has taken far too many people I care about already and I don’t see this letting up.

I’m trying and failing, and trying again. Food sucks, some is okay, but the rest I just can’t stand.

Hugs for all, even distanced ones count. X x

💕

Xmas day

The build up was worse the smells the idea of food.

I cooked it was all in here, I didn’t cook everything we’d usually have. And nothing had any flavours or additional things in. It was all seperate, took longer and wasn’t the Xmas dinner we’d usually have.

But, I ate. I tried the meat, beef and chicken. Nope. So I stuck to my version of veggies.

Wine was awful but not as bad as rum.

The pic of Bobby is because we have no decorations at all. Looks a sad lonley house. Lol

First real ‘no’

Bit of an odd one. I cant quite put it in words to the what was wrong with it.

Too much garlic, onions, tomato?

Everything was just, nope. From the smell to the taste.

I did eat my small portion, only as there was nothing else, but even my husband said no. The spaghetti bowl left was his side. Lol

Just not good all around. Would not re order.

Mum’s home!

It’s been a massive few days of stuff.

Mum is home. Which is awesome. But man the stuff I’ve done around that stress just to keep going.

House people came out. I kept trying to eat. Its been a trying time.

I’m trying each meal for me is in 2. And there’s still not huge amounts of taste. But I’m trying I swear.

Tonight’s was about the best. I’ve got some for tomorrow. And the pakoras were something I knew was good but still couldn’t taste 😢

One day at a time. The stomach hurts. So slow for me. But I’m pushing on.

First drink, and real test… Vibrant Vegan :)

So it was my birthday, and I wanted to try one drink. We picked run, and made some dark n stormy.

Sadly it was terrible. 😭 And tasted liek sweaty socks. So no alcohol for me.

After my birthday, and my rum tasting awful. I want very hopeful in trying this, but it didn’t smell bad.

At least not like the meat products I’ve been cooking for Paul.

It was spicy, and I could taste the kick. I felt it had taste though wasn’t quite sure what, tomatoes, and the cashew nuts were distinguishable. The quorn added texture.

I thi k at the moment, texture and some flavours is good. But I am not going to get it. Not like a normal person.

I tried a small but of banana this morning. That was a, no. Bobby got the rest.