So could life be getting any easier, I think not? Wow, have I been in for a shite ride.
First after hurting my leg, I had an amazing two weeks off, chilled out and did some great writing, managed to write my first feature length film, yey. And I loved every minute of it. I fell in love with the characters and the world I had created, and when I had finished the script, I felt like I had lost my best friend.
Its weird I know, but it actually hurt.
Anyways, I have since learned that our caravan has to be moved and that means the whole of our beautiful garden has to come up. We aren’t sure what plot of land we will end up with, who our neighbours will be and more importantly how much compensation we will get.
The next knock down, is the company I work for made an announcement this morning that they have sold us out, to someone else, I am gutted, and I thought it was quiet but it always is in Jan and Feb, but they seemed to think that was the best option for them…. What the hell is going on in my life, I just don’t know what to think or where to turn toooooo…
I feel so useless, yes they said our jobs are safe but who can say that?
I just don’t know what to think, today is the first time I have made myself sick in a while, and I feel completely worthless. Ed always finds the worst situations to try and win you back and so I did. I turned back like the stupid woman I am, and now I feel so much worse, I also restricted badly today and then it made me worse as when I did eat, I just didn’t want it inside me.
Why is it that I feel so crap? Because life has just been sooo shit, I don’t know what I did in a past life but it really must have been bad. What could I have possibly done?
I know I am rambling on, but I am still in pain with my hand and my ankle is swollen still too, everything has gone wrong, and what next will it be.
Sorry for such a negative post here, I just can’t say anything else.
Love to ya all