Lots of people don’t like talking about stress, or mental health.
I’d say even more so this last year. But things can take a turn at anytime in your life.
I tried, I was doing okay, but this month of April, I had my vaccine shot (first one) and it kicked my ass. I then got a cold which wiped my smell and taste away again.
It’s pretty easy to see where I started to introduce food again, and though it’s been a little up and down in the week it’s been going up and up, till it hit critical with extra stress as above this month.
I have limits set. And set for a reason, so that I have to address it. Before the turn last year it was extra weight and stress. Now I’ve no extra weight to lose. I’m under what I was in 2019. But not quite as low as hospital weights.
I’ve done what I can this week, cut the coffee, drank more water, and it’s coming down, I had 3 days of rest from food. Its really hard for anyone to understand the feelings around this.
I’ve tried my doctors, eating disorder groups and talking but no one gets it.
Food is the devil. There no pleasure only pain. I can just about taste sweet stuff. Spicy, nope. Got the hottest Siracha sauce today going. Was like tasting mayonnaise and Paul couldn’t stand it… Haha
But it sucks.
I get to go to the docs Friday. 3mth checkup. Its been 9 mths since I had bloods done. I feel okay, but I’ve lost half my hair and have bald spots… 😭
I was getting new hair growth, but if I curb the food again 😭
I want to see a way out of this, but the emotions around it are some of the worst.
Went shopping today, the washing aisle was like walking into a human waste facility. Gag…. Ugh grin and bare it.
I had to buy some new clothes, have only wore slippers for 12 mths like most people. My other shoes had it. The rest all packed away.
Wonderful isn’t it… We also have moss growing in my bedroom…
The ombudsmen have at least emailed me back. The company coming out come the 11th May for more tests…
This month ahead is gonna be busy. But I have the most amazing people around me. For that I am very very grateful. They know who they are.
I don’t talk much, I don’t post much. I hide in my work and my worlds.
If you hide in other people’s worlds and enjoy it, review those authors. Tell them you love their work and why.
If you don’t love it, and want to hit that 1 or 2 star button, hold off, that person might just be at the end of their tether. A little kindness or just not posting goes a long long way.
This year has been very interesting, to say the least, and after working from Jan to March with the fab Michael Chatfield in a stint only a few could actually stick to, I’m proud to say that our first co-written piece in his series launched today. 🙂 huge grin on my face!
When Mike asked me to help out on this series, I was a little hesitant. Already 5 books in writing in someone elses world is not that easy. But, I considered all my options and for those who know me, they also know I love a challenge. So, stepping up my reading game, I blitzed through the Harmony War’s and soo fell in love with the characters he’d created. I don’t lie when I say, Mark Victor stole my heart. After getting to know Mark and Tyler throughout the first 5 books, I was eager to dig in and create with Mike the visions he saw for them into the Maraukian Wars.
We had our fair share of life trials and tribulations in the 54 days we sprinted our asses off, but the results I think speak for themselves.
I hope you guys will love the extra I bring to the characters you already love, and I hope that there’s a few more which may also steal your hearts.
Electric Blue is a poetry collection scheduled for release in June 2017. It will be on Kindle, as most things are these days, but the paperback is by far more interesting. It will be a limited edition of 50 or 100 copies, printed, bound and numbered by me. The printing will be carried out entirely in blue ink at a local micropress, Rabbits Road Press. I intend to use a bold repertoire of fonts to maintain style and readability. Each book will be unique due to minor differences in the printing, binding and paper used. The imperfections of the process are part of its charm.
The poems themselves span over half of my life, from skewed, critical teenagehood to brain injury and beyond. Some of them are lyrics from an abandoned album. Certain motifs ñ birds, light, science fiction/fantasy ñ keep cropping up. Electric Blue explores some themes from the memoir But Iím Not Depressed, and can be read as its companion or alone.
Author Bio – Lia Rees
Lia Rees lives in London. She loves music, particularly prog rock, chillout and anything melancholy. Her ideal house involves plenty of books, attractive lamps and things made from coloured glass. Open-source culture and wild places excite her, and she has dabbled in the creative arts of jewellery making, crochet and T-shirt design.
Since 2005, she has been living with the psychological and cognitive effects of an acquired brain injury. Her first book, “But I’m Not Depressed”, uses a lyrical, honest writing style to convey the loss of language and personality itself, and her search for answers in a flawed medical system. She writes to bring readers into the surreal world of the survivor, and to save other survivors from the psychology trap. A follow-up book is planned on the effects of brain injury in high-IQ people.
Her “day job” involves creating book covers and videos for authors. She also has ambitions for a science fantasy trilogy and a concept album.