Physio, and weekend :)

Well, I’ll start with the tough one. Physio on Thursday. Couldn’t write about it, as was in a bit of pain thur and fri. Only ‘early’ days with the break yet. So I’ve got small stretching exercises to get the joint moving. I’ve to use the sling when out, or for the extra support. But I have to try and stretch. Bit impossible at the moment. Can’t get my arm anything near straight. Really painful. And making a fist. No chance, the pressure on the forearm is tooo much. 

I can wiggle all fingers, although have some burning sensation in my wrist itself, and can type for a short amount of time. (really not long though as it aches too much) So in all I’ve got some work to do. 

Physio is positive for a good outcome. She thinks in time I will get full movement back. But it may be much longer than I hoped for. So, still taking it a day at a time. I’m a little impatient, mostly because I’m sat at home, and itching to get back to the things I love. 


It was okay when I hurt my knee a few months back, feet up and could type and stitch till my heart’s content after a few days. But the pain killers make me fussy headed, so can’t concentrate, and I can’t use my hand. 😦 so boredom sets in really quick. 



The fish seem a lot better this last few days. So I’m hopeful that I’ve got rid of the flukes. Taking a scrape today, just to be sure. 




Writing, well can’t say it’s easy. But, I’m trying. Plotting some of the next book, that’s the best part. Because I don’t have to type, I can use the dictation function, to get all my jumbled words together. 

One of my writing buddies is doing nano this year, so hoping we can egg each other on to that finish line. Or maybe I’ll start in October and do mine a month early. Think I’ll fry the dictation device though trying to get it to type 50k 🙂 or is that cheating because I’m not actually physically typing. I don’t know. lol


This weekend, has been quiet. Everyone’s working. So, home on my tod as per usual. Hubby is off today, but going fishing. I ditched the pain killers last night, but then regretted it. Still not sleeping, can’t get comfy at all in bed. So that really sucks. Can’t sleep past 7am, which means my days are long, and hard work. 

Praying for some ease this week. Lets hope for some sleep, and some good news. Hate, not earning any cash. Just as we get ahead, something knocks us back. Thank goodness the solar cash comes in this week. £600 will tide me over till I get back to work. 


That’s all, caught up. Hope to speak soon. 


Dawn x x





Better day :)

Well today was much better than I thought it was going to be. Still not much sleep even though I went to bed early. It was gone 12pm when hubby came to bed, and then again I had to get up for pain killers, so was awake for a good while. 


The baby tank, our Qt hasn’t been looked at by me for a couple of days, and I was keeping a good eye on them till I broke my elbow. So going out there today I noticed a couple of red spots on two of my whiter fish. So there was me, my big pan net, and a floating net trying to catch them one handed. Lucky enough they weren’t too difficult. That wasn’t a good sign either. 


Scraped one, near where the sore was, and put it under the scope. No wonder they were sore. Skin flukes. Geeze. So only treatment I had was fluke M so in it went. 


Fingers crossed they’ll feel better soon and will be okay. Will keep you posted. 


As for everything else, well spoke to the solicitor about the accident I had. It went well, totally honest with her, we’ll see what happens. I just don’t want anyone else to go through this so it’s not nice. 


I’ve managed a little editing today, more than I have the last week. So, I’m happier in that sense. 


Couldn’t get a docs appointment, so I’ll try again tomorrow. I did however walk into the village and buy some veg soup. So I felt better doing that. Will try and aim to do it every day, then I might not panic over weight gain. Just still need to be careful. 


Pain, bearable this afternoon. Fingers crossed it is starting to heal. 🙂 


D x x

Pain and ED in my head :(

So this week has been awful to say the least. Pain like I’ve not had since I broke my ribs.

Inconvenience like you wouldn’t believe. 

I went to see the Fracture Clinic on thursday, hubby took me. I was in there for around 10 mins and was called in. The doctor couldn’t even see the fracture on the picture before him, omg and then went about manipulating my arm too much. 


I was in terrible pain afterwards, and excruciating pain all night and into early hours of yesterday. It eased off a little, but it doesn’t feel the same, I don’t have the same amount of movement with it, and I hate to say it but last night got pins and needles in it too 😦 So I am thinking back to my doctor’s first thing on Monday as it should be getting better, not worse. 


For me the worst part is no sleep, and being alone most of the day with out being able to type properly or do things. 😦 I’m finding it very depressing and not to mention I’m probably piling weight on. This is freaking me out, big time!!! ED although silent for so many years is screaming at me now. I think I need to talk to my doctor about this on Monday too, I’m highly anxious and feel if I don’t start to do some exercise, or something, walking, anything then being home like this will drive me off the deep end again. 


The break is not the issue, the issue is now that I really want to return to being anorexic 😦 awake at night I am constantly thinking of ways I can avoid eating around my husband. And plotting things to do which are really bad for me 😦 


I want to hide away, but this isn’t going anywhere. I need to bounce back, but fear I can’t do this one on my own, so I am going for some assistance as soon as I can. 


Thanks for listening. 


D x x 




First go at dictation :)

Never tried dictation before so let’s see if this works out okay. Been a crap day went to the doctors for pain relief and anti-sickness medication. The doctor was very nice, felt sorry for me and laughed because it happened Friday the 13th. I have been signed off work for a while eek, this is quite difficult for me because wages and money will be very tight. But as usual in life we take it our stride and continue onwards.

We agreed it was not the pain medication which was making me feel safe, it is in fact the pain. And so keep going as I’m doing take pills every four hours with the anti-sickness and hopefully feel better. It seems to have made a difference this afternoon.

Paul has gone to work now, won’t be home till gone midnight, and so I am home alone with Bobby and the cat. Of which I don’t mind their company is nice. A movie and some pottering about. Facebook is quite addictive when you’re at home all day.

Here is Bobby keeping me company, isn’t he just adorable 🙂 I love him to bits.

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Experience with NHS fail

Okay so this has taken me a good while to post, because I am one handed typing. But, here it is. 


After my fall yesterday we went to Southport Hospital. I’ve always had very good experiences of the place, been seen for the most part in decent time. 


Well yesterday was vastly different. On walking in there were 2 people booking in, and one waiting. I saw the triage nurse who said she would put my arm in a sling and Paul booked me in while I went to the toilet. 

The nurse never came back for me. We waited an hour and a half. The three people who came in before me, went in. Then three people who came in after me we went in. 

One a portuguese guy with toothache and the other a polish gent with backache! I had a possible broken arm, WTH 


So, I went back to the triage nurse, asking for her to put my arm in a sling. When she couldn’t because I started crying at the pain, she asked me what my name was again, and then went running in to the doctor. 


Another half an hour later and the doctor called me in, I had been MISSED off the system. Nice huh?


So the Doc assesses my arm, says he’ll ask for two x-rays, because most injuries are of the wrist not the elbow, but my pain was more in the elbow, and off we went to radiology. 


10 mins later and no one about. Then a wonderful porter comes by with a patient and books us right in. 

My turn for Xray…. easy peasy right?


Nope. The doctor has missed putting on my form that the radiologist had to x ray my elbow too, so off he went to go find the doc. 


When I finally get my X-rays, he calls in someone while in the chair, I can hear them talking about the fracture. ‘great’ 


He comes over with a form to take back to A n E and tells me it was a good job I insisted on the elbow X ray as it was a definite fracture.


Back to the doc, who apologises again. By this time, I am so fed up and feel so sick, I just want to go home. They won’t plaster till the fracture clinic see it, and discuss it with me. And the next appointment is on Thurs, if I can’t get there then a week on Monday. Thank goodness hubby is off and I am able to go. 


So, Southport, you really let me down. I was there, 3.30 hours. BIG FAIL


Today, pain killers aren’t cutting it. I’m constantly thirsty and this has taken far too long with one hand. 


I am not a happy person 😦