Pain and ED in my head :(

So this week has been awful to say the least. Pain like I’ve not had since I broke my ribs.

Inconvenience like you wouldn’t believe. 

I went to see the Fracture Clinic on thursday, hubby took me. I was in there for around 10 mins and was called in. The doctor couldn’t even see the fracture on the picture before him, omg and then went about manipulating my arm too much. 


I was in terrible pain afterwards, and excruciating pain all night and into early hours of yesterday. It eased off a little, but it doesn’t feel the same, I don’t have the same amount of movement with it, and I hate to say it but last night got pins and needles in it too 😦 So I am thinking back to my doctor’s first thing on Monday as it should be getting better, not worse. 


For me the worst part is no sleep, and being alone most of the day with out being able to type properly or do things. 😦 I’m finding it very depressing and not to mention I’m probably piling weight on. This is freaking me out, big time!!! ED although silent for so many years is screaming at me now. I think I need to talk to my doctor about this on Monday too, I’m highly anxious and feel if I don’t start to do some exercise, or something, walking, anything then being home like this will drive me off the deep end again. 


The break is not the issue, the issue is now that I really want to return to being anorexic 😦 awake at night I am constantly thinking of ways I can avoid eating around my husband. And plotting things to do which are really bad for me 😦 


I want to hide away, but this isn’t going anywhere. I need to bounce back, but fear I can’t do this one on my own, so I am going for some assistance as soon as I can. 


Thanks for listening. 


D x x 




Abuse :(

I don’t really want to post too much about this. But seeing I had an ‘incident’ at work. It has sort of left me just feeling weird. 


Everyone wonders how they’ll react in certain situations. A girl surrounded by a bunch of guys, you know that sort of story… 


Well I found myself in one that I hope never happens again. 


It went like this. 


Stopping my butty van at a paticular stop, I had a couple of my regular guys come over to buy their dinner. Nothing wrong with that. 


Then two others came across that I didn’t know. Someone drove past and simply said ‘I’ll give the first one to plant her on the lips fifty quid’ 


I didn’t expect anyone to jump at me, but that is what happened. I did fight the guy, but ended up hurting my neck in the process. 


Next time, I should just ‘plant a head butt’ and not worry about the ‘assault’ being on my end. Better the other party be injured than me. 


To be really honest, it left me shaken and upset. I didn’t know the guy, but what makes people react like that. You get a bunch of people together and somehow it ends up being something it shouldn’t. 


I’ve not had the mindset to do any editing today. I’ve emailed E.J the edits I’ve done so that at least we have something to look over and see how I’ve done tomorrow. 


So, I’m going to leave you with a few questions…

What would you do in that situation?

How do you think you might react?

What do you think I could do to protect myself in future? 


Have a good evening all. 


D x x