can’t imagine a life without you,

you rule my head, filling me with dread.

I can’t imagine why you hurt me so,

that inner pain won’t ever go.

I’ve fought you long, I’ve fought you hard,

but the damned tiniest crack,

and your back.

My head hurts, my heart aches.

The pain I cause myself so bad, that all I feel is sad.

To want this year to end, to blend with all the others.

To start the next afresh, and not inside this terrible flesh.




So non of my friends are about to chat, so I thought I would pop in here.

I have had a good day in work, just got in about 30 mins ago, the weather is horrible, I was sliding all over on the road in my car. I am so so glad we don’t have to use the motorbike in this weather, I remember what it used to be like going to work on my 125, oh no never again. Far too cold and dangerous.

Anyway, it was pretty un eventful really. I did my job tried to do the best I could and then when the night man came in to releave me I came home.

I have a few days off now, but I might pop up to one of our other petrol stations tomorrow. They are having a mock robbery, how cool is that. I am going to try and get some on my phone, when we have one at our site, I really want to get the film crew down and make some sort of little documentary about it, that would be great. Something else on my belt..

Its got to all help.

I just wonder what it would be like to be in a real one. I know we are all trained to handle things like that, and to keep our cash limits down in the tills but at this time of year, if someone thinks they can get £10 for nothing, they will try anything, especially if desperate.

So I might blog tomorrow about what happens, Think it will interest a few people and myself for future reference lol.

Hope all is well with everyone else. I am going to go to bed soon. Its been a long day, I am cold and my pillow is calling my name….


Speak soon, good night all.



Hey to everyone who knows me.

Just a quick update.

I am very happy to say things are great. I am doing well in my writing and in my home life. Of course I aint going to be 100% happy but who is.

I’ve managed to write a novel in november as part of nanowrimo, and I am working hard on a few other projects. One is my series, which is going from strength to strength.

Will try and keep updated a little more, I know I should.

Speak soon.