Hump day…

The weeks are going quick. 


Funny isn’t it. Started out today with great intentions. Jee, didn’t quite end up as good a day as I’d hoped. 


Got a puncture at work. Of course my fault. It’s the way I drive… lol, not the face I visit some really untidy places where you can pick up nails like I don’t know what…. but oh well. It was sorted and I was back in the road in an hour. Lets hope it doesn’t happen again. Or I’d be in the running for a ticking off. 


Busy isn’t in it at the moment, two big projects rounding to a head this weekend and I’m heading out to meet the lancashire wrimos for the first time. Preston here I come. 🙂 

Then I have been asked to take part in another project. I’m looking forward to sinking my teeth into this one. (pun intended) it’s a vampire story. So can’t wait for Feb…. 


Results at the gym were great too. I’m not getting hung up on the weight side of it, I’ve not lost as much as my ED would like. But I am still telling him to sod off. But my stats are on the UP!!! water is better, bone density is better. Muscle is better. Visceral fat is down 1 point. Which is massive, I do want to get it much lower though. 🙂 So that I am in the healthy range. 

Positive energy. 


Dawn 🙂 x 

Last Sick day :)

Hey everyone 🙂 

Today is my official last sick day from breaking my elbow. It’s been a long road, and it’s really set me back a little. Not only the physical side of things but emotionally too. However, the good news is, I’m happy that I will soon be back at work and things this year will hopefully be vastly different. 


I must admit I wasn’t overtly happy getting on the scales this morning. But I needed to check what I’ve actually put on, and I knew I had. It’s not hard when you’re incapable of doing anything but walking to put on. I am really trying not to let that side of things get me down. I’ve agreed with a friend that we’ll do this together and that I have to shift weight put on, and weight I wanted to before that. Ideally getting to a goal which I know is good for me. I’ve a fair way to go. But our goal is similar. ED you can steer clear, this is going to be healthy. 


So as of today, I’m officially on a two week holiday 🙂 Whoo hoo. how exciting, not. It’s really not like being on holiday at all. You know that feeling when you’re so excited it’s you last day at work… well it doesn’t come close, sorry. 

I’ve two weeks to prep and get ready, so fingers crossed for me. I really wanted to get back to it sooner, but I’ll take this as good prep.

I’ve had some amazing support from here, thanks everyone. Going to make the most of my last two weeks off. 🙂 


Catch you soon. 


Dawn x x




Pain and ED in my head :(

So this week has been awful to say the least. Pain like I’ve not had since I broke my ribs.

Inconvenience like you wouldn’t believe. 

I went to see the Fracture Clinic on thursday, hubby took me. I was in there for around 10 mins and was called in. The doctor couldn’t even see the fracture on the picture before him, omg and then went about manipulating my arm too much. 


I was in terrible pain afterwards, and excruciating pain all night and into early hours of yesterday. It eased off a little, but it doesn’t feel the same, I don’t have the same amount of movement with it, and I hate to say it but last night got pins and needles in it too 😦 So I am thinking back to my doctor’s first thing on Monday as it should be getting better, not worse. 


For me the worst part is no sleep, and being alone most of the day with out being able to type properly or do things. 😦 I’m finding it very depressing and not to mention I’m probably piling weight on. This is freaking me out, big time!!! ED although silent for so many years is screaming at me now. I think I need to talk to my doctor about this on Monday too, I’m highly anxious and feel if I don’t start to do some exercise, or something, walking, anything then being home like this will drive me off the deep end again. 


The break is not the issue, the issue is now that I really want to return to being anorexic 😦 awake at night I am constantly thinking of ways I can avoid eating around my husband. And plotting things to do which are really bad for me 😦 


I want to hide away, but this isn’t going anywhere. I need to bounce back, but fear I can’t do this one on my own, so I am going for some assistance as soon as I can. 


Thanks for listening. 


D x x 




Monday :)

So the weekend was mostly spent in bed. Recuperating. Although I am still feeling a little full of cold. I do feel much better.


Wish I could take some time off work to really re-charge. But seems that they’re so snowed under they can’t. And they’ve still not advertised for the new position promised. That would help out their work/holiday load for sure. You can’t have 14 people working for you and only one person available to cover. The sums just don’t add up. When we all get 3 weeks holiday. And no one really wants to take them in the dead of winter now do they so out of the 52 weeks. Most really want there hols in the summer…


Oh well.


In other news. Treated the Koi again yesterday. Was a bit hairy towards the end. They started to sulk around the surface so I neutralized it this time and changed some water.


Couple of lunkers. The chemical reaction from the HP is quite strong. And they don’t like this as much as being treated with the PP.


Poor fish.


Will have to leave them for a week or so and see how they’re doing.


Writing wise. Finally got back into it yesterday. It is good to take some time off but hard to get back into the zone.


I am raring to get going some more though. Easter hols soon. This year it comes early at the end of the month. So looking forward to it. I’m physically and mentally exhausted. 😦 and I know that is why I get sick easily. Plus the ED never helped lower immune system.


Fingers crossed that this month starts to pick up. Mortgage adviser should get back to us with some info. And I’m hopeful for our future.


Fingers crossed for me everyone.