The day draws near and “Yes” I fear, for my world grows even darker.
There are times I think of you all day, and some times I don’t.
If only things were different,
If only I could have saved you,
It must have meant to happen,
It made me who I am, although full of weakness, I am strong in some ways too.
You taught me love was forever, but you weren’t here to stay.
I wonder are you watching over, if so are you jealous, for now I am married.
Don’t I say be jealous, you still hold a special place. You’re always in my thoughts.
Never forgotten, and never far away.
Dawn Chapman 28th January 2004
(married name is Chapman)
I hate, hating me, but I just can’t see,
that the evil inside is driving me wild.
This pure anger towards my inner child,
I want to hide not enjoy this ride
Drug fuelled emotion,
Bitterness and Pain
I see no colour
Just grey miserable rain
No light the end of this tunnel
Just more darkness I see
Drowning in self hatred,
Please pull me free.
Things you cannot see are the things that I can
Inside you and me, someone’s waiting to be free.
Hold my hand let’s not be afraid,
our spirits can and will be saved,
We can face our future; we have one another,
Now there’s hope there can be no other.
Together we can brave the darkness,
Love each other and hate ourselves less,
Life can be amazing,
Let’s prove it isn’t raining.
Let’s prove we can make it, not fake it.
Dawn Chapman 2004