Sat – 22/2/14

So, this week was a kick start back into positive thinking. 

I started off taking part in a beta read for a new group I’m in on Scribophile. http://www.scribophile.com/authors/dawn-chapman/ This was what helped me lots. I actually forced myself to concentrate this week on just the three projects. This for me is a ‘huge’ thing. As I am constantly over stretching myself. So yeah, I read the 100k book. I wrote over 10k in critique for it and we’re now discussing plot points and my thoughts in the group setting. 

My second project is that for The Pandoran Age Chronicles, http://pandoranage.com this takes up lots of little bits of time, because I’m learning all about Ibook publishing. I’ve never attempted anything like this before. And Scrivener, is a tool which I’m finding excellent in helping out. It’s just so organised. https://www.facebook.com/pages/The-Pandoran-Age-Chronicles/331690376852755

The tiny issues within in the book itself are all spacing. Trying to keep everything in uniform and perfect against the look of the book. I can’t fault the artwork or the idea behind Dante’s world. And I’m honoured to be part of this project. I am essentially learning as I am going along here. It’s all good though, and hopefully will look good when I get to release it for the team. 

My own project, I worked on through the week with EJ Runyon, https://www.facebook.com/BridgetoStory?fref=ts and I’ve got some time later today to also edit. It’s been a really validating couple of weeks. I’m part of a group left over from nanowrimo which has managed to actually keep to a strict weekly meeting scenario and the guys there read a random chapter for crit last sat, to which I was humbled and happy for the comments to come back. (I annoy the heck out of copy editors though eeek) lesson learned, but the strong part is, the battle scene worked with minor things to add in. 

EJ’s session was also really good, every week working with her is great. I learn something all the time, and it’s really translating to my writing. This is wonderful to hear, because it isn’t just an investment of time and money, its for the future of the whole project/franchise. 

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Weigh in results this week, also validated everything I’ve been striving for, with the ‘blip week’ on my monthlies out the way, this weeks weight loss was double. Muscle and Bone up, age back down, fat loss really down. I’m much happier in myself. From the start of this year and getting fitter, I’m now back to the weight I was before I broke my elbow and a stone off. Awesome. I just need to keep believing in the plan and let the people at the wellness centre do what is best for me. 

I will admit though that Dave the personal trainer there, put me through my paces this morning. Huge thanks 🙂 

Got to get back to it… 

 

Dawn x x 

 

16/2/14 – Flying past.

I can’t stress how much the weeks are flying past now that I am back in work. So this one might be a long one…. sorry. And also a double poster.

Week starting with the 10th

I kind of got off to a bad start with this one. For those who don’t want to read about womanly ‘things’ then look away, this one isn’t for you.

I’ve been married for 16 years this April. And due to my Eating Disorder in the very beginning my periods were all waco. So I went onto something that, at the time would sort them and me out. The Deprovera injection. At first this was really not a great thing. Supposed to sort it out, it vastly made things worse. And I bled for the first 3 mths almost non stop. As a weak person from the Ed, it did make me worse. However, it did settle.

Dec 2012 and the nurse told me how much my weight was affecting blood pressure and she was thinking that coming off the injection was a good idea, to help with the weight side of things. I came off it, it has taken me almost 15 months to regain that monthly womanly thing. (I so don’t need it in my job) but it started off on the Monday and lasted till Friday.

I guess you can call me a monster, as I had weird mood shifts, terrible pains, and the yukky side of it was just something I can’t be doing with, my decision is to go back on the injection. For my health and sanity.

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This affected my weigh in also. There was no weight loss. Water gain, was big, muscle a point and so was bone density. This then deflated me into paranoid and Ed behavioural thinking. If it wasn’t for the people around me being as supportive as they were, then I am afraid I might have started to do stupid things. My brain was screaming at me that I’ve been eating too much and at the weekend I drank myself silly just to drown out the voices for a while.

This really didn’t help me, kinda makes things worse.

Dawn

A busy week.

This week has been a trying one. But aren’t they all?

It was great being with mum over the weekend, but something wasn’t quite right with my car.

Heading to the gym from work on Monday, I popped it next door so they could have a look. I went to do my workout. All was good. Had a phone call from our ACO about the two safe house parrots, they’re both going to be fostered and I am so happy about that. I will of course miss them like crazy, they’re amazing personalities. But I guess this is what I am here for. 😦 I kinda have to be happy that they’re going to a nice home. 

But then it wasn’t good. My car wasn’t safe to drive. And thus my workout extended with a walk home. 30 mins later and a blister 😦 

I spent the rest of the evening with headphones in, doing the last of my transcript for a director. Loved the film, listening to it, and rewinding it to catch all the dialogue, tough. But worth it. 

Tuesday – no uniform and a sore foot. I was off to a great start. Car cost £75 to fix someone else’s mistake. Sucks.  I had an editing session with EJ who was under the weather so it was kinda cut short. And we re-arranged thurs meeting for Sat, so she has some time to recoup. 

Wed – was my weigh in at the gym. I had really good results. 2 lb off. 1 lb on in muscle. Water is up, bone density is up. Visceral fat and BMI is down, Age is down 1 year, lol I am a happy bunny. 

Friday – up and in work early. Long day. Only left the yard at 4.50pm from 5.45 that day. Almost a 12 hour day without a break. Kinda starting to get to me already. Especially after I used to leave the yard on a friday at just after 3pm. 

Sat, again early start. At the gym for a workout. Bought some birdie food, went home, cleaned all cages and the house. Then settled in for some more editing by myself and EJ. I am really happy that it’s coming along as it is. EJ’s a wonderful teacher and she’s picking up on how much I am really trying. I like this, because it teaches me that I am doing well. That I can do prose writing, although it’s harder. I am enjoying the editing process. Getting into my characters heads more, and feeling and reacting as they do. TSK – is going to be worth it. 🙂 

Sunday – today we’re off to see some friends in Manchester. We’re still up early, but thats a good thing. I’ve got reading and time to make more notes for a chat with a possible collaboration partner.  I’m excited for this year. I feel much better in myself now. And things are going well even with the hiccups of life. 

 

Love to you all, and please feel free to comment, talk to me. I’m always around somewhere. 🙂 x