It kinda goes without saying that I have a lot, lot of hair.
But when it starts to drop out in clumps, you know your body’s stopped supplying it with the means to grow, it happened at this point in 2007 and again in 2015, but it still doesn’t mean its a shock. The body knows how to look after and preserve itself, and rapid weight loss, 48lb is a lot in 14 weeks. 😭
I guess its almost a good thing I do have a ton of it, but already its feeling the strain. But three days of brushing out tons, hurts, it gets so knotted it stays where it wants in the morning and brushing it out ughh nightmare.
Where do I see myself going right now, sadly not to a good place. The years off to a rough start, covid has taken far too many people I care about already and I don’t see this letting up.
I’m trying and failing, and trying again. Food sucks, some is okay, but the rest I just can’t stand.
The build up was worse the smells the idea of food.
I cooked it was all in here, I didn’t cook everything we’d usually have. And nothing had any flavours or additional things in. It was all seperate, took longer and wasn’t the Xmas dinner we’d usually have.
But, I ate. I tried the meat, beef and chicken. Nope. So I stuck to my version of veggies.
Wine was awful but not as bad as rum.
The pic of Bobby is because we have no decorations at all. Looks a sad lonley house. Lol
It was a rough night, mostly cause I had stomach ache. Refeeding is hard. And it’s one of those things you push to the back of your mind and forget. But hurting is hurting. And so I got up early 3am and did what I usually do, I hung out, chatted to people and wrote.
It helps sometimes when you love a story so that even if on distracted days the story flows, just a bit slower.
Mum had her surgery and am glad she sounded much better. Fingers crossed for fast healing.
I have 3 chapter to write tomorrow on this book. About 9k then I can set this books aside while I edit book 2, and send in another series for edits.
With the house issues and the insurance people coming on Tuesday I have a busy ish week ahead. I am thinking of my new series… But not sure I will start book 2 yet. I will continue to self edit book 1 and then see how the week ends.
For those wondering what… Here’s the photos of the house saga
Dry rot discovered 21st July. Flooding and a well discovered in August.
Yes still not sorted and waiting on the insurance now for subsidence and broken drains.