26/02/05

 

My friend Mark, was involved in a major accident on thursday, night,

I wanted to ask everyone to keep him in their thoughts and pray for his recovery,

He’s 21 yrs of age, just found a lovely girlfriend and has so much life to give everyone, and now he is on life support in intensive care,

I am devastated and hope with all my soul that he has the strength to pull through and fight this. As a freind I love him dearly he has brought so much happiness in work where I was sinking, and he has shown me a new way of writing in the screenplay world, without him I wouldnt have gone on the course I loved so much, and without him I would have given up,

I know he will get this message, I know he will never give in.

Come on Mark I’m here routing for you.

 

Love your script buddy.

Dawn

Xxxx

18/02/05

Vortex

There is a big black hole inside,

A vortex,

which I can’t describe.

It’s whirring round and around, and I am struggling to stand my ground.

I try each day to fill it, but it is a bottomless pit.

Starving for affection, not knowing which direction

Fumbling forwards, not turning back

I believe there’s more than this crap.

Dawn Chapman. 18th February 2005


By kanundra Posted in poem

18/02/05

Hi everyone

Am just writing this, as I got some time on the net, will be back on a bit more when I get home, as Paul and I have done a lot of working out of things, and I know I need to keep talking and getting through this,

It hasnt been easy at all being in my nans coping with her little nigly ways and her watching every thing i eat and stuff, ed had taken a good hold of me again and I have been bottling it all up and i know that has been wrong, I broke down the other night and had it out with paul, we talked for hours, and it was good,

You see I got my appointment through back for the ed clinic in ormskirk and I am so scared of going back, I want to but I dont, I am freaking out about it big time, but i know i have to talk about some of the things in my past that I never have before, and havent still been able to with anyone yet,

 

I want to say welcome to any of the new members here, that I have missed and I hope I can get to know you all,

 

And a huge thanks, goes to my special friends who know who they are, for always being here for me even through this real rough time,

 

I love you all so dearly and have missed you so so so much,

Love and huge huggies Dawn xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

04/02/05

Feelings

There is something deep inside you,
That you’re finding hard to share.
And it’s the demon inside of you,
that says that I don’t care.

Let me talk to that demon and say how I feel,
for the feelings I have inside for you
are very real.
I can’t stand to see you hurting,
cause then I feel it too
The sadness inside you that makes you feel so blue.

So please let me tell you how special you are,
Remember Bex you’re that bright gold star.
Never in my lifetime have I met someone like you.
Someone with whom, I want to share my whole life through.

There was something about you that day we first talked,
A great understanding the further that we walked.
We laughed and joked and cried, pushed that demon to one side.

We stood hand in hand together, and made our stand.
You give your all and ask nothing in return,
there is a lot from you that I could learn.

You radiate warmth and love,
I am sure you were sent from up above.
Shining from within you will never give in.
Through all my pain and heartache, you were by my side
And now I can say this,
and I can say it with pride

I am glad I found you, and can call you like my sister
I am glad I found you, and I can say I love you.

Written for Bex 2005.

By kanundra Posted in poem