First drink, and real test… Vibrant Vegan :)

So it was my birthday, and I wanted to try one drink. We picked run, and made some dark n stormy.

Sadly it was terrible. 😭 And tasted liek sweaty socks. So no alcohol for me.

After my birthday, and my rum tasting awful. I want very hopeful in trying this, but it didn’t smell bad.

At least not like the meat products I’ve been cooking for Paul.

It was spicy, and I could taste the kick. I felt it had taste though wasn’t quite sure what, tomatoes, and the cashew nuts were distinguishable. The quorn added texture.

I thi k at the moment, texture and some flavours is good. But I am not going to get it. Not like a normal person.

I tried a small but of banana this morning. That was a, no. Bobby got the rest.

Hard truth

I don’t think any of us can know how we will react to things till we are exposed to them.

I don’t think any of us can know how we will cope, or what we will do.

You think you are doing okay, and life railroads you completely.

Literally the year that was supposed to be one of the best in my life. Turned into such a mess, and although I’m trying I can’t see a way out. Attending Cheadle Royal in 2007 was the hardest thing I ever did. I feel like I’m back at that cross roads

How can you be expected to eat when everything is awful? How can you be expected to try. There’s nothing more depressing than a horrible taste in you mouth. Seriously the smell is the worst.

I did manage to eat, but my body’s telling me things I had forgotten. That voice is a killer.

Nearly my birthday, and I couldn’t hate myself anymore. 😭

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I was writing the above, listening to a friend on discord when I got the phone call.

You think things can’t get much worse, they can.

It was my mum’s friend, she had fallen in our local town. Ambulance was on the way.

What was a food plan for the night went out the window. So I am glad of shakes, I am glad of something.

I will continue these thoughts later when I can.

Delivery, and first solids

So yeah my first frozen delivery came. From Vibrant Vegan!

They look great for 2 people. Let’s hope they taste okay!

Still struggling with garlic, but made my fish food with garlic and their good mix. I coped its just not very good for me… Ugh

Sadly till I get used to some solids again, I need to go easy. This was a premade veg bowl from tesco, (took the butter out) half of it and half a tin of tuna.

I managed to eat half of it, but chewing is hard and so is the taste.

Got to remember this is baby steps.

Fingers crossed for tomorrow. At the moment I feel pretty awful. Going to go relax, watch TV and then have my last shake about 8pm.

💕