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Dec 10 2020

Hard truth

I don’t think any of us can know how we will react to things till we are exposed to them.

I don’t think any of us can know how we will cope, or what we will do.

You think you are doing okay, and life railroads you completely.

Literally the year that was supposed to be one of the best in my life. Turned into such a mess, and although I’m trying I can’t see a way out. Attending Cheadle Royal in 2007 was the hardest thing I ever did. I feel like I’m back at that cross roads

How can you be expected to eat when everything is awful? How can you be expected to try. There’s nothing more depressing than a horrible taste in you mouth. Seriously the smell is the worst.

I did manage to eat, but my body’s telling me things I had forgotten. That voice is a killer.

Nearly my birthday, and I couldn’t hate myself anymore. 😭

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I was writing the above, listening to a friend on discord when I got the phone call.

You think things can’t get much worse, they can.

It was my mum’s friend, she had fallen in our local town. Ambulance was on the way.

What was a food plan for the night went out the window. So I am glad of shakes, I am glad of something.

I will continue these thoughts later when I can.

Jan 8 2017

Healthy-Happier me!

 

For some that follow my blog, trigger warning needed so please don’t read – weight mentions. But, I am in happy place, not an ED related place.

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It was great to go out yesterday and was positive in its results. So for some things to move forward I am keeping my fingers crossed.

What was really interesting was I bumped into a customer of mine from a few years ago, and although she thought she recognised me, it wasn’t till I spoke about my job that she went. ‘I thought that was you’ and then added ‘Haven’t you lost weight’

Totally one of the best things you can here when you’ve had some tough times over the holidays.

So yeah, in 2015 I reached my target of 83kg. I kept it off for almost 12 months, but sadly last year was really difficult and I rose back to 91kg.

So yes, I do have a new goal to reach (75kg)  it will take me back to where I am comfortable, not what I left Cheadle Royal at, which was over my usual weight. So I’m taking it easy, back on Lipotrim, with the support of my family and friends. and taking it one day at a time. 🙂

I am on day 7 already and feeling so much better. The initial detox (especially after all the booze in the hols) was hard, I had a headache all week, but it’s gone now, and today I feel amazing.

For everyone who has a goal this year, be it a new year’s resolution or just something you want to do. I wish you all the luck in the world. I will update as and when I can, and fingers crossed my new goal isn’t too far off… hehe

~ Dawn

Apr 30 2014

Weigh in day.

Well I kinda knew this one was coming, but oh well, we had a fantastic birthday and anniversary weekend, plus I drank far too much and couldn’t go the gym, but having said that. I only put on 1lb and put muscle on too, lost a little water weight, but it’s hot here and I keep forgetting to drink more. I had my measurements done and lost 8” in total there. Which is amazing. I’m still totally thrilled with the loss so far and the gym is brill. Just need to get back into it after a week off. Not so easy! 

Been a busy, busy week again. With s few issues with the pond, and sorting out things at home with new phones. Nothing ever goes right does it…. bonkers busy my life at the moment, but it’s all good. 🙂 promise. 

Catch you soon. 

x x