Here I am thinking about truth, mmmmm


not good,


really not good,


ed you fight back with such streangth and I hate it, just as the scales go up a touch you knock me down like a steam train,


you are the biggest steam train I have ever known the size of the planet I think,


you are one bad evil monster,


and as much as i hate you i know i am the one each time getting back up on my feet and hitting you back saying  dont care for you no more,


but the thing is you are very goos at persuading and really good at looking all safe and comforting,


been a bad week and you know it, sitting there behind me wanting me to fail teasing me at every down fall, but you know something bad weeks are good too, as it makes me see the real good ones,


I have something to share with you ed, something my mum gave me, something I love,


for My daughter


I remember looking at you as a child, wondering what your future would hold, I wanted to shelter you from unhappiness and surround you only with wonderful things.

I realise now that I could never have done this.

For in order to appreciate happiness, you had to experience disappointment,

to enjoy success you had to have some failures,

to feel true love someone had to break your heart.

I couldnt protect you but I want you to know I was with you every step of the way.

When I look at you now and see the woman that has emerged from within

I couldnt be more proud.


It was a giftone of those little fridge magnet things and you know what ed, she is right in every way, and with your help I am becoming the person I want to be, and in fighting you off, I am becoming stronger,


boy your in for a tough time mate, hehehe


umm thats my vent for the day thanks for listening


Love and hugs