Mar 15 2005

15/03/05

 

I am so FED up of this crap, so fed up of the way ed makes me feel,

 

I have been ill all weekend started as a cold, and then went to a stomach cold, and grrr, ed is right in there now, making me feel worse, as I have hardly eaten and its doing me in,

 

I am so annoyed at me for listening to him and wanting him to help me, I want and dont want it, I know its so wrong and I hate me for feeling so bad,

 

Been crying most of the day and I am scared, scared to talk to people scared to let anyone in to how I am feeling right now,

 

WHICH is so so so so so bad, I want so much to hurt me in more ways than I could think of, yet, I dont want to hurt anyone else, and I cant do it,

 

 

I am giving in, I cant fight much longer, I am growing weaker and I cant stop him from winning,

Mar 13 2005

13/03/05

Just to say

Things can only look up when you are on the bottom,

Things may seem so dark but there is light up there,

For each of us fighting, I know we are on our way,

Pushing on upwards, forwards, never giving in,

 

I know we all have problems

I know we all are busy,

Lets take some time this week to spend on us, a bit of time to keep us relaxed,

 

Even if its five mins in the garden, five minutes with our eyes shut not listening to ed at all,

 

I know its hard I know its really hard, to turn the tide and win,

Here we will never give up,

Here is a place to come and be free, be us,

Love you all loads,

Dawn

Xxxx

Mar 5 2005

05/03/05

I just wanted to say

(((((((((((((((((((hugs))))))))))))))))))))))))

I hope everything is ok, and wanted to say how much I have missed you, I apreciate everything you have done here, and always will do, you have a very special place in my heart,

1 that will never be forgotton,

2 be cherished forever

3 that will be repaid

 

You are truly the most amazing and beautiful person I have ever met, and its hard to come by people nowadays that have sacrificed as much as you have for others,

You really are an angel, and I hold want you to know, that,

 

Every member you have here has reached out over the internet and come to this site, spoken about some very painful and emotional issues, and most have been helped in some ways by the healing and support they have been given here,

Especially ME.

 

I love you, and am keeping you in my thoughts, love always, and sending more hugs, as I feel you still need them right now,

Dawn

Xxxx

Mar 4 2005

04/03/05

 

Hi everyone,

just wanted to remind everyone, how special we are, and why we come here.

I wrote this for B and L, but want everone to read it, and take note, this is why we have friends.

 

 

 

 

Friends,

The thoughts and feelings going on inside your brain,

I know are driving you inasne,

 

But no matter how hurt you are,

To me you are a gold star,

All I want is you to keep shining, even though you feel like dying.

 

Know this pain will go away, and you will be free some day.

 

For I am around you in thought, to help your spirit when your caught,

 

To break those chains of torment and smash those great shoes of cement.

 

No longer will you drown, rise up breath in life do not frown.

 

Life is so precious and so are you, no more will you feel blue.

 

You have me and our friendships true.

 

copyright Dawn chapman 8th October 2004

 

Want to send  HUGE HUGS for everyone,

 

Loads of love Dawn

xxxxx

 

Feb 26 2005

26/02/05

 

My friend Mark, was involved in a major accident on thursday, night,

I wanted to ask everyone to keep him in their thoughts and pray for his recovery,

He’s 21 yrs of age, just found a lovely girlfriend and has so much life to give everyone, and now he is on life support in intensive care,

I am devastated and hope with all my soul that he has the strength to pull through and fight this. As a freind I love him dearly he has brought so much happiness in work where I was sinking, and he has shown me a new way of writing in the screenplay world, without him I wouldnt have gone on the course I loved so much, and without him I would have given up,

I know he will get this message, I know he will never give in.

Come on Mark I’m here routing for you.

 

Love your script buddy.

Dawn

Xxxx