My oh my, where does the time go.

It’s beyond me….

I am feeling a little better so am managing to eat and not get tummy ache.

Been doing some research and trying to do some more writing. Umm not too easy, but plodding on.

Anyways, not doing much tonight, so catch ya all later. Dawn

Earlier

Is there anyone with anything interesting to say out there, I am a little sad and bored to see nothing much other than jokes and blah blah on net log today…

Sometimes I wish people would just talk about themselves for once, how we all can get to know each other and become friends if we don’t talk…

For those of my friends who are going to read this, thanks for chatting today, and am feeling a little better, wondering what I can try and eat for my tea, as I don’t wan to be kept up all night with tummy ach again, I want to go to work tomorrow, I need the money, sad aint it, when we have to go to work to keep surviving.

Oh well not long, only 12mths to go and no more debts, then we can plan lots of great stuff to do together, our small mortgage gone, and loads of free cash, heheheheh, cant wait…

Take care all.

Dawn x

12^th June 2007

Just to let everyone know am feeling much better, and have been doing a little bit of stuff today.

Am going back to work tomorrow, even though I don’t really want to but have to help pay the bills. Life hey.

Anyways, been doing some research on funding for a film, and also been writing…

Thanks for everyone who has been inspirational today, hope to catch you all soon…

Dawn

Anyone else interested msg me I got an hour left to chat before I go off to bed…

heheheh

9^th June

That’s it, I have had enough of friends, I don’t want any, any more, they just fucking suck…

On Thursday it was my friend’s birthday, and she went out and had too much to drink, so cancelled our horse riding class on the Friday, yeah I was upset and didn’t say anything, but now, because I cant do something with her at the time she wants I get all this shit….

I don’t think so, if she doesn’t want my friendship anymore then forget it, all the time I do things for people, and all I get is rubbish in return. I am sat here now crying, because I am sick in the first place and have been for three days, and because I get nothing but hassle off people, and I have had enough..

Yes I feel like going and taking a razor and hurting myself, and I want to do this because someone is being shit to me.

I don’t want to do anything anymore, I haven’t eaten properly in months, and I am sick at least twice a week.

Oh yeah they pretend they care, and they don’t want to lose me as a friend, then tough, because every one can get lost.

Enough is enough and that’s it. NO MORE…

Dawn x

LATER

Yes I had a bad morning, and as I wasn’t feeling well anyways it took its affect on my psych. Am feeling a little better now, still upset with my friend but hey, that’s friends for you.
Am supposed to have been going out tonight but cant face it, hadn’t eaten all day but just have now, didn’t enjoy it but know I cant function on nothing.

I think I might stop out for a bit but then will come home going back later to pick the others up when they eventually come out of the pubs they like.

Hope everyone has some great plans for a great evening, and thanks to all who responded this morning,

sometimes words of kindness and good thoughts are all we need.

Dawn x

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Why does everything revolve around, sex, I go into work and all the lads talk about is sex… my friend Andy is really obsessed with it, apparently I have a great camels toe. Nice to know, I suppose.

I understand why they obsess about it, and I am so sure if I were a man I would walk round with a permanent erection, as I think about it all the time. My brain is obsessed, and my body is, but please less of the animal remarks…

Andy is terrified of me according to his friend Mark. I am a married woman and this guy really is scared. What he thinks I would do to him I have no idea….. Yeah he is handsome and pretty charming, but no matter what, Paul comes first and even if we were stuck in a lift or in the middle of no where, my heart is spoken for.

He loves playing games in work, and of course to get through the day most of the time I play along, ‘How much for him?’ ‘What are his chances out of a hundred if you were single,’ but the thing is he always likes to talk about himself too… He is nice but really he drives me batty, of course he says the same about me.

I don’t know, he doesn’t like me, so his mate says, but really he confuses the hell out of me.

If people were just honest and said exactly what they were thinking it would be so much easier…. wouldn’t it.

Am going for an early night, I have a headache…. no wonder hey???

Dawn x

To say I had an odd weekend, would be an understatement, I really don’t know what happened….

Friday was brilliant, at work we has such a laugh, and because one of the lads was leaving, we all went to the pub, with our bosses permission, and had a few drinks with hi, we even got an extra paid fifteen minutes, wow, amazing, and then on the return to work, one of them broke down.

I had had a lot to drink; umm how many drinks can you actually have in half an hour…………..

Should I say how much vodka can you drink in half an hour and still stand up and work?????

Ummm I am getting so used to the polish way of drinking I have now decided that it’s just not good.

When we finished in the pub we quickly walked and got 4 beers of which one we gave to phill who was leaving and the others for us for after work. This is polish beer by the way…

Kate and I drank? Shots in 30 mins, and could still walk straight, and of course work, as we only finish at 245….

Got back to work and because our manager Steve had worked through dinner and not had a pint, Kate and I gave him a bottle of beer, and we got to work.

Ummm apart from having the third degree off my mate Andy, who is just as horny as I am all day, and never stops talking about sex, we had such a laugh…

When we finished, Kate’s brother was late picking us up so Kate and I opened our beer and began to drink, we then learned another or our mates had lost his job, but he was sacked not made redundant like the other guy… and we waited, he waited with us a little shocked I think.

Kate’s brother then came and took us home of to which we went past mine and then back to mine about an hour later. Mad…

It was pouring down with rain, (Glad we never went camping) and Kate and I walked to get a bottle of vodka) got soaked and then we stayed up till four in the morning.

I was a bit worse for wear on sat morning, but still took her home after dinner.

The rest of the weekend, was rather strange, very subdued and quiet, really I have been a little depressed. But kicked that back into touch last night.

Went to meet Sian for a few drinks in ormskirk, got oogled at by the guys in the Italian restaurant we went in to and then when in the bar later, got chatting to some nice Australian lads. Maybe we were just oozing sexual hormones or something? I don’t know… or maybe it was just because we were dressed to kill. Lol…

Should be going, am rabbiting about nothing really, am going to chill out and have a glass of coke I think, diet of course.

he he he

Dawn xxx