Category Bit of everything

Feb 2 2013

Great day :) contemplation and editing…

Haha, so there is a lot of stuff up in the air at the moment. Got a very important letter which we knew was coming… let us just hope that it helps us shape out future for the better. 🙂 

 

I had a couple of pieces to catch you and read today, still got one left for tomorrow, but I am catching up. Work really gets in the way! 😦 sucks… lol. But, needs must. 

 

I’ve been editing this afternoon. Trying my hand once again at turning my lessons into better writing. I don’t have as much time this week, as I am having my session on Tuesday. I am hopeful though 🙂 

 

Not much to report today, contemplating our future, wondering and trying not to live too much in the past. Hoping that there is some good luck out there for us. 

 

I do hope everyone has a great evening. Take care all. 

 

Dawn 

Jan 31 2013

Doctors and Editing :)

Great combo. huh… 😦

Oh well, so I’m due back to the docs today for another BP check and weigh in, I’m not so happy about it, but hey ho.

It is really, really difficult to keep healthy and work in the job I am. But more so, it is really, really difficult to not return to old behaviours.

I am hoping that I have lost a little, although I’ve tried not to really stress over it, this last couple of weeks at home have been difficult. And it has also been difficult to keep to a healthy regime. When there is a nice bacon butty staring you in the face, kinda hard to go for a turkey one.

Had my second session with E.J last night, it went very well. She’s a lovely teacher and I admire her for doing the job she does.

I learned so much more about how and why I write as I do. I’ve always known I write things backwards, well working at my paragraphs yesterday also showed that. I get things in the wrong order and need to really address the point of each paragraph for its merit.

So, changes that I’ve been making are good, but I also saw another different way of working through some things too.

I’m going to give it another go on my next 10 pages or so, and then see how I’m progressing again.

Homework too, is to read a dictionary. Need to buy one first. lol.

Hope you all are having a fab day, and lets hope the nurse goes easy on me… and that my BP is okay.

Dawn x

 

Edit….  Lost the required amount of weight, 🙂 Not so sure if I am happy though. Blood  pressure is down. I am happy about that. 🙂

Jan 29 2013

Abuse :(

I don’t really want to post too much about this. But seeing I had an ‘incident’ at work. It has sort of left me just feeling weird. 

 

Everyone wonders how they’ll react in certain situations. A girl surrounded by a bunch of guys, you know that sort of story… 

 

Well I found myself in one that I hope never happens again. 

 

It went like this. 

 

Stopping my butty van at a paticular stop, I had a couple of my regular guys come over to buy their dinner. Nothing wrong with that. 

 

Then two others came across that I didn’t know. Someone drove past and simply said ‘I’ll give the first one to plant her on the lips fifty quid’ 

 

I didn’t expect anyone to jump at me, but that is what happened. I did fight the guy, but ended up hurting my neck in the process. 

 

Next time, I should just ‘plant a head butt’ and not worry about the ‘assault’ being on my end. Better the other party be injured than me. 

 

To be really honest, it left me shaken and upset. I didn’t know the guy, but what makes people react like that. You get a bunch of people together and somehow it ends up being something it shouldn’t. 

 

I’ve not had the mindset to do any editing today. I’ve emailed E.J the edits I’ve done so that at least we have something to look over and see how I’ve done tomorrow. 

 

So, I’m going to leave you with a few questions…

What would you do in that situation?

How do you think you might react?

What do you think I could do to protect myself in future? 

 

Have a good evening all. 

 

D x x 

 

Jan 27 2013

Back to normal :)

It’s been a very strange week. Exciting in more ways than one, hard work in others, (like all the snow) lol…. but all is good. 

 

The reason I made my blog private has worked. I actually got an apology and I understand now… ED’s are a strange way of life, hard, unbearable at times. And so I am going to move forward and hopefully put that little hicup behind me. As weird as it was. 

 

Good start to the day, all the snow has gone. Although it has been replaced with flooding instead. 

 

Editing is going well, and I am looking forward to my next session with E.J on wed 🙂 

 

Catch you all later. 

 

Dawn x 

Jan 26 2013

Why Private? :(

Okay, so this will be pretty short. I’ve made my blog private for now, I might keep it that way. I am unsure at the moment and it will depend on how many people will still follow me.

I guess we’ll see how it goes. But attention from a couple of sources that I don’t want has discouraged me from posting about ‘certain’ subjects.

Eating disorders are tough to deal with. I know this, but I’m no doctor either. One reason why I didn’t ever put ‘Lost Innocence’ on youtube. It’s triggering and it can be abused.

I don’t want my blog to be abused, By anyone.

Cyber stalking and bullying are ripe. But no matter, I left my blog open for a while hoping that it would stop, but it clearly isn’t. So for now, only certain people can have access.

Post for you later.

Dawn x