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Oct 20 2012

A mixed week thoughts and feelings :(

So, yeah it has been a pretty mixed week.

Quite simple really, its been tough. Very tough. Work has been hard, hard to get through each day.

I hate that the nurse tells me things I already know. Blood pressure is still up. If it continues then I may have to go on tablets etc etc. My weight is a big issue with her, because I know I am a big girl. I don’t hide from it. But what would she sooner me be, eating, or not eating? No brainer really. My body is, as it is.

But there is a decision to make, between being ill in ‘one sense’ and then being ill in another.

I have had a good week ‘food wise’ stuck to what I wanted to eat and didn’t let the work side of things get to me so that I over did it. I have been quite shocked in the fact that a pair of wellies didn’t fit me over the weekend and now that they do. I don’t like drastic weight loss, it fuels the Eating Disorder behaviors that are so stuck in my head. Those behaviors which I fight so hard to ignore every single time I am confronted with food.
I wish Recovery was so simple, you get over it. But in my mind, you don’t. There is this thing that has been deep seated inside your brain for, well for me 17 years. 4 years in recovery just still doesn’t quite cut it.

The good thing is I know. I know all the tricks that ED tries. Believe me he sticks that knife in where ever and with what ever I do.

I still have the confidence and the drive to fight, and I won’t go backwards. It just really is a struggle sometimes.

I am glad that I can still say that, I am glad even though I am doing well with my writing and my personal stuff, that I don’t feel the need to change.

People will love me, or hate me.  But, I don’t lie, and I won’t. Ed did that enough for me in those 17 years.

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General life…

I’ve had some big issues with my Koi this week, and they’ve not got easier. One particularly sick fish is really struggling. But, I’ve had a good friend come out to help out today, and I’ve decided on a course of action. It still is touch and go. Costia is the worst thing I’ve ever encountered.

But it isn’t over yet. She hasn’t given up just yet, and neither will I.

Will let you know how we get on tomorrow. A sharp PP bath, and into my QT tank with my baby fish she will go.  Fingers crossed.

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Writing,

I have had a very pleasant week. Best Friends going live on you tube,  has been the light keeping me totally on track. I’ve had the nervousness, I’ve had the excitement and its been the best week of my life in that regard.

I can only hope that it continues to hit home and that people can relate to the girls situations and to the relationship they have with each other.

So keep watching, and keep us in your thoughts through this next week. On every level, I need positive vibes.

Speak soon.

D x

Oct 16 2012

One day to go!!!

So yeah, I should be excited for the release of our show tomorrow.  ‘Best Friends’   🙂

However, I am now feeling a little nervous.

I don’t think I should be, but I can’t help it.

https://www.facebook.com/bestfriendstvseries?fref=ts

 

And it will be live on http://www.youtube.com/user/BestFriendstheseries/featured    so please follow us there too.

 

So, if you can follow me closely tomorrow. And we’ll all get to watch it together… Can’t wait really!

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In other news.

The pond had its good dose of PP in early evening last night. And fingers crossed for them all, but my Shusui just doesn’t seem happy at all, still sulking today and now she’s flicking too. Swimming totally wrong, not like her. She’s well stressed over the treatment prob, and the costia. Just hoping it has killed them on her. Will re-scrape again to see in a couple of days.

I just hate it when there are problems like this with them. Love them to bits, but when it turns nasty it really does.

I’m on my holidays next week. A good break from the stress at work, and some time to look after myself and hopefully do some writing. I’m itching to do something, just haven’t been able to with everything going on around me. It has just been one thing after another. Some good, some not so good.

There are some other possibilities lurking around for me. Have my fingers in all kinds of pies at present. Let me just hope that one works out, and then I can tell you all about them. 🙂

Catch you soon, and will keep everyone updated on my poorly Koi… bless her.

x

Oct 15 2012

Costia in the main pond :(

So I have thought for around the last two weekends that something hasn’t quite been right with the main pond and my big fish. I’ve taken scrapes from several koi, found nothing….

 

Then this last three days, my shusui who is already struggling.. she’s egg bound, has had fin rot and well she didn’t look so good on Saturday. She was sulking on the bottom of the pond.

 

I had thought she was just on her way out, kinder to put her to sleep than let her suffer with impacted eggs and septacemia. But I’ve very reluctant to give up, so I was thinking of transfering her to my QT tank and seeing if she responded to heat better…

 

Of course after a scrape…

 

Well the scrape showed Costia. Not in massive numbers like what was killing my babies back in July, but in enough of a number to cause concern.

 

So, I text a couple of my Koi Buddies. As I was preparing the treatment for the whole pond. Potassium Permanganate. PP for short.

 

Used it a lot in the last four years, nasty stuff. Turns the water purple and strips the oxygen out of it. But, it works… and it works well.

 

So the deed is almost done, nearly 2 hours in. Still purple, although got some more settling just in cast I have to top it up.

 

Fingers crossed for my big girl, she’s been through the wars, not the best looking fish, but I still love her 😦

 

Sad right now, so gonna have a beer and relax for a little while.

 

 

Oct 3 2012

Today

I was trying to post Pt 3 on the pond build, but I got lost in resurrecting some old files. I’ve actually lost some pictures, and I have no idea where they are. 😦 gutted…
So, today is about me.

I am feeling pretty crappy at the moment. I am not too happy with work stuff, which I won’t talk about. But, on a quick note, even though I am doing the utmost that I can, I still don’t think it is good enough. 😦

Anyway, there are other factors too, a week last Sat, I got up to find one of our guinea pigs had died. So then I had to make a decision for the other piggy… he needed a friend, so I decided to find a new home for him.

I am a little gutted, sad, but his new home is good. His new mum has loads of experience in breeding and care, so I have no doubts what so ever that he will be very very well looked after.  I just miss their squeeks… their chattering, begging me for some fresh veg.

This has had a pretty bad impact on my eating this week, no lies, why should I. I’ve not felt very well, and although I’ve eaten its not been what I needed too. This will settle I know, I just need to make sure that I am able to move forward.

Trying to sort out the rest of the problems here, have also been a little bit of a nightmare. It just never wants to stop with this rain… yuk… We’re trying to sort out things for the weekend to get on with the pond plumbing, it just doesn’t want to let up.

I have something nice to look forward too, just over two weeks and we’re off on holiday. Don’t think we’ll go anywhere, but the rest will be so nice. I really need it and so does Paul.

Fingers crossed for the weekend, we want it dry and productive, so I can post more pictures. lol….

🙂

Take care all, and speak soon…

Dawn

Sep 30 2012

:) a niche in this blogging sphere…

I’ve had chance today after the ‘project’ this morning to catch up and read through some of the blogs on this site. I have to admit, that there isn’t a great deal posted on Koi, I find this a shame. So, perhaps I do have a little niche that I can write about. And gain traffic to my blog with.
I’ll have to take a look back and see where I was and what I was blogging about at the time we started our pond build, but I can re-visit it for sure, we’re a million pictures of the whole event. It started on my husbands Birthday and lasted far too long…
Now, let me go get some pictures and see where I was in 2008, well apart from in a pretty bad place. Recovering from an Eating disorder wasn’t an easy task. That year was one of the toughest in my life. But I can say that I am grateful to have had the help I needed at the right time. Thanks.
So, let me interject some of the good things going on in my life into that era. Pictures and commentary to come. 🙂

Hope you keep coming back to read some more, and it will keep my brain ticking over and getting into gear for writing again. Nanowrimo isn’t too far ahead. November, yikes.

D