Jan 3 2012

03/01/12

Tuesday…

So as interesting as it was to be back in work. (not) glad it is over.

Paul hasn’t worked today, so it was nice to get in and have a roaring coal fire. Was good not to have to do it myself.

I also had two Parcels waiting for me when I got in.

One, a freebie from  http://www.talentville.com a book on scriptwriting, by David Trottier… Dr. Format. So that will be an interesting read. I’ve kept up as much as possible with the column that sparked the book.

And the other was for a DVD. A Nandar entertainment production, called Finding Mr Right. I’ll let you know what it is like when I have seen it later.

So for the rest of the evening I’m going to make Paul look after me. Seeing as it was such a hard day back at work. I don’t like doing much on the first day.

Got my ‘healthy eating’ off to a good start. I avoided all the pastries and bacon buttys at work. I tell you it is going to be tough, driving a large ‘lunch box’ around all day, filled with delicious pastries, cakes, sandwhichs, pasties and other hot food is a nightmare. But I will have to carry on. I really do want my to look nice for my dad’s wedding. 🙂

Fingers crossed. 🙂

Settling in for the night now.  I have a few other things to write. So on with that… no more procrastination I have a TV episode to finish.

Speak later.

Dawn

Jan 2 2012

Yikes!

Wow….

I didn’t think I’d do it all in one day. Please no one read all the posts lol… there are a lot. There are a lot which aren’t nice to read, because of their content.

I was much younger, my grammar and spelling is awful. I was tempted to spell check and read every post, but in the end I choose not too. Mostly because that is how I blogged at the time, in my deepest darkest moments, when thinking about SI and my ED I think spelling etc was the last thing on my mind.

So it is done. I only have one more place to grab posts from, more about my koi than the other stuff.

Onwards to an interesting year. I will continue to blog now. And I can put the facebook thingy back on, I didn’t know it was posting straight there this morning. My page was inundated lol.

Catch you all soon, getting an early night as back to work in the morning. Boring!!!!!! don’t want to go, I really don’t.

Someone come and save me and BUY some scripts.

Speak soon

Dawn

Jan 2 2012

A hard task, but a good one.(I think)

Hey,

So chatting to a few friends last night made me think about doing this, and seeing as I am awake and the rest of the house isn’t. I am going to start this Mammoth Task.

What am I going to do? you say.

Well I am about to transfer my whole history from groups across the  internet that I helped with and had help from over the last 12 years or so.

A lot of it was deleted, because MSN and their groups went away with the fairies. But, I kept everything, like the hoarder that I am. I still have real diaries, (ones you wrote in) from the age of 10 upwards. So this  is my whole online  journal,  a very long connecting one, with all its trials and tribulations, hopes and dreams.

If anyone ever reads through it all, it will be a miracle. But the sites I was on, I had lots of friends and supporters. There are still a lot of them around today, but sadly there were some losses. Eating Disorders are like that, and I lost some very very good friends. (RIP) 😦

Maybe one day I might make a coherent film about it. At present it is what it is, a complicated inner sanctum of turmoil, highs and lows, picking up my feet and finally realizing that recovers is possible and staying safe and happy is more important than any other issues.

Onwards, and lets see how much I get done today.

D

Jan 1 2012

Goals

So,

I have been thinking. I post in lots of other places, but not here. So I transferred all my Fishy adventures across. Now I need to find all my other ones.

Goals this year are….

To lose 20lb, to support my husband to lose 40lbs. I have to get him fitter if he wants to  be able to swim and dive.  He thinks he is ‘old’ but alas he is just ‘pudgy’ and unfit. Bit like me.

My eating disorder is in the back of my head, but I am not listening. I want to  look nice for my dads wedding, I want to buy a nice suit… size 14… or wear the one I have.

I want my husband to look nice too, it isn’t a lot to want. really.

 

Writing goals, are a whole different ball game.

 

I want to start to send more stuff off.

 

I want to polish my feature, and write one more.

 

I want more short stories finished.

 

Other goals.

To finish around the pond now we found the leak.

 

To sell and get my babies much bigger.

 

To have a healthy happy year for my koi.

 

To just chill out and relax on a few breaks away. Carnforth and maybe Devon 🙂

 

I think that is probably about it.

 

Thanks for listening.

 

Dawn

 

Jan 1 2012

New year!

Happy new year everyone!

Wow, what a rush that was. 🙂

2011 was a pretty rough,  tough,  year. But we made it, and we’re onto the next one.

Here’s looking for better and for more.

Dawn