Category Bit of everything

Mar 28 2015

I’m so excited :)

Hey all – it has been a busy week.

One thing I have found in plotting over the last week is no matter how well you know your story. That sometimes the characters can surprise you.

Book 3 has really had me stumped for some time. The end goal and Kendro’s Death being one of the damned hardest things to get through ever, because I’ve known it and it’s been written in the TV series for many years and something which was hard then.

Leading through Book 1 and 2 Kendro totally stole my heart. I don’t and never want to kill anyone, but when you go through and live and learn with your characters through a few hundred thousand words, getting to that point is bad.

The fact that he tries so hard to avoid all conflict leading to his demise is noble, but the outcome still the same. Just in a very different way. I lose him.

Today, I built up the chapters leading to this. The ultimate battle between worlds. The situation is dire, there is nothing anyone else can do. And it’s been an awesome day!

Nano isn’t for everyone. I totally understand that. The fact that you’ve to hit targets some people can’t deal with, but I find it liberating. The support from other writers around the world is amazing, and with camp you can set your own goals… even better.

So, roll on April the 1st! I’m all set to go! and totally excited for it… how is your WIP treating you? are you taking part in camp nano?

Mar 17 2015

Progress

It’s been a little while since I’ve posted so I’m here, I think 3 weeks in with meds though, so I’ve been trying to get used to all that and in getting myself feeling better.

The AD’s kicked my butt at first, not only when I take them do they make me sleepy, (which was kinda the point) but I also couldn’t stop eating. It’s really like I’ve no control over it, and that was very hard to deal with at first.

I kept up with the training though and even though I ate loads I tried not to freak out. The second week was easier, I took cereal snacks into work, and munched on those instead, and this week I seem to be much more able to control what I’m doing. And the training is increasing. 140 heart rate tonight and 11 mins 🙂 so increasing 1 min a day. I can do this!

Everything for TSK is going well. The cover design is looking amazing…. and we kinda decided on the end of April as a tentative release date. 🙂 So we’re storming to that as a goal. Fingers crossed everyone.

Will try and post as soon as I get anymore news.

Dawn

Feb 27 2015

Breaking point and how to fix it.

Thankfully it really is friday, and this was my week.

It’s been a long one that’s for sure, although I can’t really point my finger as to the why. I guess it’s just my mindset.

I had two appointments this week at the doctors, the first with the nurse for my regular depo injection (contraceptive) where she weighed me and did my BP, I know my weight has crept up a bit since I hurt my back, and I’m sad about that from losing it all last year. My main concern is my BP and the fact it’s high for me. My elliptical came though and I’ve been getting back to exercise, so that is one positive.

Yes, I know, but even with watching the food, no alcohol and plenty of water, my BP is still high 140 over 93, where it used to be 120 over 70. It’s not dangerous, but I can feel the difference. I feel out of sorts.

My second appointment was with my doctor, to discuss some of the things bothering me. The accident and the pins and needles in my arm are from my neck she advised me to keep it warm for now, and gave me some more pain relief, just in case. The second thing we really talked about, was how I was feeling. The not sleeping for the last few months, November to now, is getting me down so much. I’m stressed with everything that has been going on at home, then I’m not sleeping, I’m more tired, I can’t be bothered, I’m wanting to starve myself so that I have some control and feeling, and yes, I’ve also had some very, very dark thoughts about other issues, like SI too. It’s not been good.

So, it was nice to talk to someone who actually did understand and listened to me, even if it was brief. I’ve been given an Anti depressant which also helps with sleep. As it makes you drowsy. I have to take this at night. I was a little concerned about taking it last night with driving today. Can’t drive if I’m falling asleep can I? but I’ve been okay. Side effects are I’ve wanted to eat. I’ve been so hungry today that I ate this morning and then again at dinner. So I am defo going to have to watch that. As I don’t want to get heavier either.

I have to give them a good try. I have to be able to get out of the rut that I’m in, or I’m going to end up back at the hospital. For one reason or another. And I don’t want that. So this is how I’ve managed it, I’ve known I’ve been getting to this point for a while, and it’s like I go the docs and I avoid it. But I didn’t this week. I allowed myself to feel. And for someone who doesn’t like to feel, this is a scary thing. Like crying is a scary thing, if you let yourself cry, you feel weak. And I’m not weak, I’m stronger than that, but I’ve also cried a few times this week to.

So yeah, breaking point. I don’t want to break – I want to be okay.

I will be okay. 🙂

Feb 17 2015

Personal Update

So yeah, just what it is.

Things over here not so good. We had pretty much a January from hell. With news about a close friend, and then my mum being diagnosed with Skin Cancer and having her op. Paul and I have both been ill and off work, hit with a nasty flu bug which knocked us both off our feet. Paul’s still not well with a bad chest infection that won’t clear and now Pleurisy.

We also lost my Uncle Bert last week, and his funeral was today. I couldn’t get the time off work, and it’s not like we were too close either but I might have liked to be there for mum. It’s been so tough this last few I just don’t know where I am fitting it all in.

I do know, I’m stuck, no sleep, no time to think or feel properly. I’m at that cusp of a breakdown, and its not getting easier.

That control I want and need from ED is creeping back. My health issues caused me so many problems I cut out all the rubbish and then that means all the good stuff too. Do I don’t I? I’m numb beyond words, and I want to get through this.

Sigh, also I had two lots of feedback from the beta group. Two totally opposites… and one that was just iffy to say the least.

I need to get away for like a year and do something exciting.

Any takers, fancy letting us sleep on the floor ?

Feb 16 2015

The TSK website is here! :)

Hey guys, here it is….

http://www.thesecretking.com/

There has been so much going on in the background with the team over at TSK and our website is looking fantastic, thank you to Chris Brown for working so hard on things.

Tonight we’re having a mini web launch! For anyone who signs up to the website members section tonight I’m going to put all the names in a hat, and they’ll get one of the first copies of The Secret King-Lethao signed by moi at no extra cost. I might even throw in some other goodies.

The members only section has lots of things planned, we’ll be posting all the animation WIP there first, before they get to the main pages. Unique short stories one per month – from our favourite characters in the TSK world, written by myself, Steven Kogan and the newest team member, Timothy Jones, (who writes all things military and horror)

The cost, next to nothing $2 a month, (about £1.50) or $20 a year  (£15) and as fans the more you tell us what you want, the more we’ll try and give it to you. Fall in love with a sub character, let us know 🙂 we might write something just for you!

So, drop by, let us know what you think. We’d love to hear from you!

Dawn

Anyone wishing to have a website designed, please message Chris, he’s super awesome and will and can build anything 🙂 https://www.facebook.com/JChrisBrownDesigns?pnref=story