Ummm

so how is everything in life at the moment…

pretty crap? Why is it after having some nice and well deserved time off work, we all end up feeling so bad on returning?

There are several things that always make me down in January and def work is one of them. The other thing is moving to my Nan’s as the caravan season shuts down and we all have to leave. It’s really sad and I hate it, you think that as we pay council tax and all other bills besides paying the ground rent that we could at least stay the full 52 weeks in the year.

I really do get well miffed in January. My hubby being a pain in arse too as he don’t like it and he keeps biting my head off.

Work is going to get mad mad busy and I don’t think they have a clue that its just suddenly going to take off and where are all our staff, two off sick now and the rest well holidays, I keep asking for them to bring my friends back but I don’t know if it will happen and then it may be too late..

Anyways got some writing to do, will keep updating when I can.

Not sure if I will get on much at Nan’s, but who knows.

Love Dawn
xx

I’ve had so much fun I don’t know where to start and that makes me happy…

I will tell all and reveal all, when I get more time, am settling in with some friends…

Love to ya

Dawn xx

I’ve been making Xmas hampers for us all in work today and it was well cool…

They are bursting and I am so made up the girl in work who has organised it all for us has done a great job we getting bout £80 worth of stuff, and all we used to get was a turkey lol…

I had a great birthday party and a lovely time with Sian and the boys, but I ve been ill for a few days now and no it aint alcohol related, it’s just my body saying it don’t like food as usual, and I really hate, it.

Food is the biggest pain in my life; I wish we didn’t have to bother, at all…

One of the lads in work today has been going on about my lovely curvy figure, and at least he made me laugh, he likes my bum, I said I hate it, especially my hips as they are sooooooo big…..

He smiled and replied with I hate skinny women they should all sit down to a good meal…

I don’t know….

Anyways, I hope everyone is going to have a great Xmas, and New Year. I may not be on much as its busy busy busy. But you never know…

Love to all my friends….

Dawn xxxxx

Wow what a weekend I have had, it’s been amazing.
Friday night I stayed in my mums, and had a few drinks, I actually got hubby to part with some cash so I could get some nice stuff for myself.
Me and mum went into Liverpool and spent most of the day looking round the shops for nice stuff, I got three pairs of jeans and two tops, a jumper a hat and scarf and Paul two pairs of jeans two t shirts and a shirt, and then loads of other bits for xmas, mum bought a few things for us, and I still got home with £20. yey…

Today been to Makro to stock up on Xmas stuff, which was ok, but they had sold out of a lot of things, so that was a wasted journey… I got a few bits though for my birthday which I am glad off.

Been out for a meal with my dad tonight, and now feel merry and happy…

Although I got a phone call off Kate, saying Monika has gone missing so now I am worried, as to where she is. She left her phone and money with a friend of hers, in Southport on sat night, and went to a bar in town; no one has seen her since. Which is unusual for Monika, but she has been really upset lately. I sooo hope she is ok…

Hope everyone here has had a great weekend…

Love Dawn

Im off now to go get warm and sleepy and then have an early night….

Yeah this weeks been a bit better, be even better when its Friday tomorrow.

My husband has decided on his holiday next year, he’s taking two weeks in April off, one to spend with me the other to go fishing, so I said thanks for wanting to talk about it, so any one fancies taking me away.. God I am really pissed off.

I aint going to get to Poland in feb seeing as he has planned this, and then Kate will probably be annoyed with me and not speak to me again…

Why do men do these things… do they just not think….?

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh….. I wish for so many things, I wish that I was just a normal person with normal problems and not make everything out to be sooo bad, and that it’s all just me, am I sooo damn ugly that everything has to go wrong…

I hate the way Ed makes me feel about everything and everyone I love and care for. It ruins everything and I hate it I hate me and I hate the fact that it’s destroying all I know…

I am this person who loves to do things creative but it all holds me back… why?

Yes I am sorry I am a real person with an inner battle going on, I am a woman, who doesn’t think she is sexy or nice, and everything I do is horrible…

Why should I bother,

because I have to, I have to keep going, I DO….

Speak soon, Im done in….

Dawn
xx