To be seriously honest, all i want to do is scrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrreeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeaaaaa- aaaaaaaaammmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

there that felt better…

I am just feeling so low at the moment, and life here sucks big time to.

My grandad was admitted with a brain bleed last wed to hospital, and there isnt much hope.
You know i said I would lose them all within 12mths, and you know i am going to be right… 

All I want to do is to restrict again, get something inside me that makes me feel better. The hunger and its pain is so relieving… all i want is to forget that things around me are so crap…

I have restricted a little tonight… but know I get watched too much at home, and as they are all here, there is no chance of me going without. I managed to get out of having chips though and cooked some rice instead.

I feel so stupid, and so lonley, yet the house is full of people.

Will anything relieve this pain in me…

NO
no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no.

It sucks

Dawn xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx