Umm awake at 330, and umm cant sleep wonder why, lol cause I will be off to see Bex soon, its not that I am nervous honestly just had some horrible nightmares about getting lost and not being able to find her, oh well, I know I wont get lost but umm am not so sure about some of the other stuff, as some of it was rather funny, anyways dont you worry I am taking my camera with me and will get some photos, even if they are of me getting lost,
I just wanted to say a big huge thankyou for everyone here, I cant name you all as there are so many of us now, but each and everyone of you has helped me in some way or another,
It has been 3 months without purging, and I have amazed myself, as not only am I maintaining a weight I am okish with but I am eating better than I ever have and feeling more positive for my future, so many things are going right at the moment I keep waiting for them to all crumble again, but I hope that they wont,
I am stronger than I ever have been, and that is all down to you impressivly loving and caring ladies/gents here. Through all our suffering we have come together to become strong with each other and keep on fighting, there is happiness out there, for all of us I believe it with all my heart.
It may take us different amounts of time to get there but I know that we can, within ourselves is something we dont have to be scared of, something we can love, our natural beautiful selves, and one day I hope we all reach our goals, no matter how long it takes me through struggles and good times, I will be here for you all, I love YOU ALl, and nothing is ever going to stop that, and I will always be around.
Sometimes its so hard for us to find a reason to go on, the pain inside is too much and we cant see a way out, this site for me has been a way out, and with each of you by my side, the light at the end of the tunnel is getting brighter,
Please believe we can do this, never give in, and if bad times are taking its toll come here, and tell us, let the pain out instead of keeping it inside where it festers into more.
Thankyou all so so so so much, think I will leave you now, umm lots more stuff to do, am leaving for train station in about umm 40 mins, oops, and want a nice cup of tea first.