RIP Hunnie….

Jay Taylor, a beautiful friend. Taken far too early.


For those who know me a little bit, and for those who don’t know me… 

I suffered with Anorexia and Bulimia for 16 years. I’ve been in recovery for 4, and a very hard fight to get to where I am. 

Today I lost a wonderful friend to the terrible illness, a friend who picked me up, laughed with me and cared for me, when she was suffering as much as I was. (i know that some people know nothing about these illnesses

This is my blog, but this is a place where people pop in from all over the world. They come and I hope they learn something too. Maybe you’ve known someone, or do know someone, or may in the future. 

RIP hunnie, your fight was a tough one, you fought your best. With God there will be no more pain. 

Love to everyone out there, suffering and to those lives you touched, for you sure touched mine. 

I remember this….. :(

Dear all…


I do remember feeling like this from 2006-07 and I remember what it did to me.


Words in my head are not good at the moment. Words are unrepeatable. The whole ‘death’ thing and stress I just can’t seem to cope well at all with. Really really not well at all.


Work is not helping. And that isn’t because I don’t enjoy it. I love my customers and the guys in the job aren’t too bad. They make the day bearable. But it’s the FOOD!!!!


I want to literally squark my eyes out. I ate the middle part of a cheese and onion pie and my inner voice is really screaming at me. I had a cup of coffee and I’ve since been sick. I’ve not been sick because I’ve felt so bad for 4 years!




I just want to hide away and that isn’t going to do me any good. I was getting over the January blues and feeling crap. But now. I feel worse.


Sorry that’s all I have to say for today. I’ll keep posting and trying to work through it but at the moment. I’m not good.


D x x

A sad day : (

So today we lost our Shusui.

A Koi that we have had for 4 years.

Of course, she didn’t look as clean as that anymore. The blue had spread, but she was one of our first, and you don’t forget that.

I wondered if you could protect the content of your blog, as I was going to upload some of the autopsy pictures. However, realized they might be a little gruesome for some. So decided against it.

The autopsy revealed she had a large cyst. And millions of eggs. Although the eggs were not bad there was nothing we could have done to save her. A real shame, but at least she isn’t suffering anymore.

However, if anyone is interested don’t hesitate to ask,

Sorry that this week has been a tough one. Hopefully, it will get better from here.