First drink, and real test… Vibrant Vegan :)

So it was my birthday, and I wanted to try one drink. We picked run, and made some dark n stormy.

Sadly it was terrible. 😭 And tasted liek sweaty socks. So no alcohol for me.

After my birthday, and my rum tasting awful. I want very hopeful in trying this, but it didn’t smell bad.

At least not like the meat products I’ve been cooking for Paul.

It was spicy, and I could taste the kick. I felt it had taste though wasn’t quite sure what, tomatoes, and the cashew nuts were distinguishable. The quorn added texture.

I thi k at the moment, texture and some flavours is good. But I am not going to get it. Not like a normal person.

I tried a small but of banana this morning. That was a, no. Bobby got the rest.

Surgery and stuff

It was a rough night, mostly cause I had stomach ache. Refeeding is hard. And it’s one of those things you push to the back of your mind and forget. But hurting is hurting. And so I got up early 3am and did what I usually do, I hung out, chatted to people and wrote.

It helps sometimes when you love a story so that even if on distracted days the story flows, just a bit slower.

Mum had her surgery and am glad she sounded much better. Fingers crossed for fast healing.

I have 3 chapter to write tomorrow on this book. About 9k then I can set this books aside while I edit book 2, and send in another series for edits.

With the house issues and the insurance people coming on Tuesday I have a busy ish week ahead. I am thinking of my new series… But not sure I will start book 2 yet. I will continue to self edit book 1 and then see how the week ends.

For those wondering what… Here’s the photos of the house saga

Dry rot discovered 21st July. Flooding and a well discovered in August.

Yes still not sorted and waiting on the insurance now for subsidence and broken drains.

It’s been a heck of a year.

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Hard truth

I don’t think any of us can know how we will react to things till we are exposed to them.

I don’t think any of us can know how we will cope, or what we will do.

You think you are doing okay, and life railroads you completely.

Literally the year that was supposed to be one of the best in my life. Turned into such a mess, and although I’m trying I can’t see a way out. Attending Cheadle Royal in 2007 was the hardest thing I ever did. I feel like I’m back at that cross roads

How can you be expected to eat when everything is awful? How can you be expected to try. There’s nothing more depressing than a horrible taste in you mouth. Seriously the smell is the worst.

I did manage to eat, but my body’s telling me things I had forgotten. That voice is a killer.

Nearly my birthday, and I couldn’t hate myself anymore. 😭

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I was writing the above, listening to a friend on discord when I got the phone call.

You think things can’t get much worse, they can.

It was my mum’s friend, she had fallen in our local town. Ambulance was on the way.

What was a food plan for the night went out the window. So I am glad of shakes, I am glad of something.

I will continue these thoughts later when I can.

Final delivery!

After Fridays mishap, it was good that my driver Keith from yesterday k ew where he was coming and had both parcels!

So that completes my little food trial for a while.

One vegan, yesterday, 1 veggie, and 1 meat.

Hopefully now I have some good healthy products that both Paul and I can eat, and I don’t have cook them which is part of the issue. The longer I have to smell it the worse it is.

I ate a bit more than yesterday, but it’s still tiny yet. So I know I’m not ready for these meal, good that they are frozen!

Had a rather broken writing day with these coming and other bits to do. But I am all ready for tomorrow with my characters and stats, should be a good day.

Delivery, and first solids

So yeah my first frozen delivery came. From Vibrant Vegan!

They look great for 2 people. Let’s hope they taste okay!

Still struggling with garlic, but made my fish food with garlic and their good mix. I coped its just not very good for me… Ugh

Sadly till I get used to some solids again, I need to go easy. This was a premade veg bowl from tesco, (took the butter out) half of it and half a tin of tuna.

I managed to eat half of it, but chewing is hard and so is the taste.

Got to remember this is baby steps.

Fingers crossed for tomorrow. At the moment I feel pretty awful. Going to go relax, watch TV and then have my last shake about 8pm.

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