Category Bit of everything

Feb 7 2012

Sad Day. :(

So after a restless night with the guinea pig managing to scratch himself red raw again. I tied his feet up once again, as one nail was poking through and hoped he was okay. But in arriving home, I gave him a good thorough examination, from where his original wound was to under his neck and front leg, he’s managed to rip all kinds of wounds into his skin, they’re all bleeding and flippin sore. He is so patient with me and he never once tried to bite me. 

 

I’ve spent the last 12 weeks trying to get this guine pig through being attacked by the other one. But the scratching is just making him worse and worse he won’t stop. He’s been the vets, he’s had medicine and creams, but nothing. Its like the worst case of exma you’ve ever seen, but he doesn’t know why he’s itching he just is… 

 

I’ve made the decision to put him to rest. And to let him not itch any more. 😦

 

Writing out the window for today. 

 

‘sob’s 

 

Feb 6 2012

more writing. :)

So I have had so much go on this weekend and today. Work was yuk, but been out for dinner and have gotten on with a couple more pages of my short script. 

 

I am however so tired, didn’t sleep at all last night, far too cold. Today was warmer but it is going to be another cold night. 

 

Sorry for the short update, but I can’t write and write here as well. 

 

Speak soon everyone, need anything shout me. I’ll do my best to answer. 

 

Dawn 

Feb 4 2012

a script writing day :)

Today has been nice, got up and got the cleaning out of the way. Paul did the washing 🙂 

 

We then went to get him a new phone as his is on the verge of collapse, managed to sort it all out and I can upgrade mine only on the 16th, so have to go back to do it. But his phone is good. A Nokia n800 with 12mg camera. He’s moved to Orange as he’s got the phone he wants on a contract which isn’t costing him anything extra. O2 wanted another £6 a month, over 2 years that is a lot of cash £120+ so we’re all happy here. 

 

Weather is freezing, no snow like they kept on going on about, but that is good for me and the fish. I think it will be lethal on Monday driving though as it has done nothing but rain and temps are -1 

 

So for the rest of the day I’ve been working hard on my short script. Writing ten pages isn’t so bad, but when you are writing to someone elses needs and wants it gets a little tougher. I am at page 5, and getting into it now. So hope to get him the  first draft off by tomorrow. 🙂 

 

How come as usual everything comes at once, you hear nothing for months. Then all of a sudden there are several people after your work and your time.  Crazy isn’t it. 

 

I have another three projects waiting now. And reads to do, and more of my own re-writing to finish off. Yikes, I need to give up the day job… wish I could. 

 

But alas…..

 

I asked my dad if I could borrow his exercise bike. Paul went mad, he’s going to ring the surgery on Monday and complain. 😦 

 

I do feel crap about it though, and about myself at the moment. Maybe in a few days it won’t be so bad. We’ll see. 

 

Have a fab evening all. 

 

Back to more writing…. at least that keeps me going. 

 

Dawn 

 

 

 

Feb 3 2012

First day without mum in work.

Hi everyone. 

 

Thanks to some of you for the wonderful comments and support yesterday, through facebook and here. I managed to calm down, had a good dinner (chippy) and a brandy. 

 

I thought a little bit more about what the nurse said, and I am defo going to say something next time I see her. I know I am not perfect, but a little respect please. 

 

I will try and exercise more, I wanted to do so anyway, just…. yeah am always writing, sorting out problems with the fish and never seem to get the time for anything else. 😦

 

Anyway, so yeah, as the title says. First day without mum at work. I was sad, no one to talk to on the way there or on the way home. Work was okay, trouble ahead though, and not in good ways. 

 

It was nice to come home though,  mum, bless her had made our coal fire and wiped the kitchen down. I sorted out the fish, and have settled down for the evening. 

 

Writing on my collaborative project with producer/director Ryan, we have a title. Broken, although I am excited I am a little apprehensive. Just because so many other things just haven’t worked out. 

 

Anyway, will tell more soon. Hoping that this weekend is relaxed and wonderful. 

 

Speak soon. 

 

 

Feb 2 2012

Two posts one day….

I’ll explain why.

Just been to visit the doctors, routine as usual.But I had the nasty surprise of the nurse saying I needed to lose weight…. she didn’t even weigh me. But my blood pressure is up, borderline as she called it. 120 over 88… I’ve never been more than 110 over 60-70 before, and I always put that down to bad eating habits.

So I’m sot of stuck in a rock and a hard place… After chatting to mum on the way home from work about weight and stuff. After all I was really good with food and excersise after the Xmas hols and in 3 weeks I only lost a pound and a half… I would have to cut everything out for nearly twelve months to lose the amount of weight my nurse is asking of me.

NO WAY! I have to say this because I know what that will do to me. I could lose the weight in a few months, done it before, wouldn’ t be hard to let those inner thoughts take fore-front of my mind once more. Would it be easier, no, would I be healthier, no. I would still fit into the bracket of ‘over-weight’

I suffered with my eating disorder for 16 years. I went from over 20 stone to just 10 and in 2 years. For my over seas friends, that is 280lb to 140lb and for the most part stayed around 12 stone for many years. Which was classed as bad… I virtually didn’t eat for months to get it to the ‘healthy’ range… wasn’t so healthy when all my hair started to fall out, I couldn’t keep my concentration levels up, or I’d fall asleep at work…

I know I am a rounder person now, I don’t mind telling anyone I am 14 stone now. But, I am never going back there.

More swimming to get a little fitter and I might cut some more booze out. But the food… nope its staying. I am not changing it, I am not restricting.  I can’t. The fear of going backwards is too much.

Rant over…

Other fab news, casting call has just gone out for the short script I’ve been working on. So excited to see this come together. I will post more as soon as I can… YEY!!!