Yes am not on to a good week.

Got my letter from the hospital, and have to go next Friday, so am already getting nervous, I hate going to places like that, but if I want to get help then I have to.

I had a friend put a lot of pressure on me over the weekend, and I am going to have to sort this problem out, as it’s not getting any easier. No matter how I say ‘can I please have some space, I am sick at the moment,’ she just doesn’t get it. And the stupidity of it was she wanted to take me to an all you can eat Chinese buffet this week, and then had the nerve to tell me I couldn’t say no.

Well I did say no, that’s for sure, I am going to see her this Friday and am going to have to say something. I know she wants to see me, but come on; she just isn’t getting the picture…

Had another letter today as well. Got an invite from first take, to go for an interview in October, for their next filming project.

I am unsure as to whether I can get time off for it, but I am going to try…

Hope everyone else’s week is better than mine…

Love Dawn xx

Well today has been interesting, had a fall out in work, and then went the pub at dinner, only had a shandy but still felt typsey. Then went horse riding, which was great, I was on dimple again, and was bounced all over the place, lol…

Am going again next week, for a little longer, so we can get used to cantering, lol, it is great fun.

Michelle actually got to come round for a coffee as she had a day off, so was real nice to talk to her, seeing as I ride with her but don’t yet know her, lol…

Anyways she is lovely, and can actually see us getting away next year for a weekend riding, it really will be a laugh, she def has a giggle on her. Wondering what she is like on a night out, heheheheheh. Fun I think…

Anyways, thank you to everyone, who reads my blogs, and takes the time to reply. Means a lot.

Still aint doing great but hanging in there, and some of the people here, make it just that bit easier….

((((hugs))))) To you all…..
Dawn xx

The weekend was really really great..

Got to Pooley Bridge on the Friday and set up the trailer tent then had a bit to eat and a few drinks, it only started raining at 1110. Luckily we got the awning up so we sat in there for a bit which was cool

Sat got up and went to the market, and I got a new friend to bring home… A kitten, well a kitten toy… She is so cute…

Sunday I drove home and when I got in Paul went out and took our friend the airport, I went to bed.

I have been so tired as of late, and I know why… just not eating enough for a few months is enough to make you really tired, and not want to do anything.

I talked to Sian on Monday as went to visit her, and she noticed the weight loss, I tried to talk about it a bit, but still cant.

Then yesterday had to come home because I just physically couldn’t work, had a stinking headache and just wanted bed, I slept from 1230 till 430 and then went back at 9 and slept all night…

I know I love me bed, but not that much, I really am beginning to feel really crap…

Got called into the office this morning over my claim against our company, and at last they are going to make our work area safe again, so am really happy, plus I think my solicitor will be pleased too.

Then got home to a shit letter off the hospital, am on a waiting list for the hospital, and that has really put me down…

Do I have to lose another 10kg before they can help me, I feel so helpless…

I hate our system, unless you are stick thin you don’t get any help and I am fed up of it….

Dawn xx

I hope everyone is doing ok this fine evening… It’s been so warm and I am all hot and mucky so am going to go for a shower, and then chill for the rest of the evening…

Had a bit of a bad day, saw the nurse for my injection, and she did my blood pressure, which has dropped since last time, (Have low blood pressure anyway) and I lost 5 kilos. I go ever three months for a check up, and she wasn’t happy…

Anyways, I am tired and grouchy, so am going to chill out… Catch you all soon I hope…

Oh and I am going away for the weekend so won’t be around… I am going to the lakes with my mum and step dad, and I am so looking forward to it, I hope the weather stays like this then I can just relax, and go swimming…

Love ya all… and enjoy yourselves what every you are doing…

Dawn xx

Sex sex sex sex sex

Yeah sex is great, but how many men out there know what they are doing…

Come on, the blogs here are really ridiculous tonight, and I am getting a bit sick of it…

Net log used to be so much more, and people used to talk…..

You know put three or ten words together, and ask how people are really feeling…

Yeah I am horny, yeah I think about sex most of the time, and you know, I wish I had time to explore all the men here……

NOT

but you know something……

I have a brain, I am normal and I think there are some great people here, under all the sex grabbers….

GO join a dating site please….

Dawn x