Category Bit of everything

Jan 27 2012

Weekend :) wooo hooo!

Yes, thankfully it is indeed Friday and after an awful night last night, I’ve just got up from a kip after work 🙂

 

Work was better, I think most people have been paid now, so they had a little bit of spare cash. It really has been such a long time since Christmas for everyone, me included.

 

So, now for some fun, I have time to catch up on everything, some sleep included. But more importantly, me time. I am so exhausted this week. It has been really stressful with things at work and at home. I hate having no time to think about problems and stuff going on, it  leaves the mind wiped.

 

We’re going out to a party tomorrow night, one which I am hoping will be fun 🙂 It will be, I know it will. Just hard to relax  really for me, but this time I am going to have a little drink.

 

Tonight I am going to have a big drink. 🙂

 

Speak soon….

 

D

 

 

Jan 26 2012

Everything going wrong :(

 

Edit, bit of good news. Passed my Diving Theory test last night 🙂 now for the moan… lol

Today has been just one of those days.

I’ve had the baby koi on my mind all day, the temperature dropped to 8 degrees overnight. -1 on the car temp gauge with it looking to only get worse for the weekend. I really couldn’t have it drop any more. The heaters we’ve been bidding on, on ebay, have been going up and up and up. So, I made the decision to just buy the one from Holmeswood Koi and Paul fitted it today.

However, he wasn’t a happy bunny when I got home from work. It wasn’t working and he’d rang Barry up to find out why. There wasn’t enough water going through it, so it of course won’t work.

We had to strip the pump out, and the spray bar from the backi shower and get it working again. That is twice in two weeks now it has blocked. So, I can’t raise the baby temp too much, because I’m scared it will happen again.  😦 sigh.

Everything always comes when you’ve no money…. Paul doesn’t go back to work till Tuesday. His arm is still a bit sore, but hopefully he’ll be okay. We can’t afford him to have any more time off.

What really pisses me off and I have to say it, is his bosses just keep on thinking he’s taking the piss. When he really isn’t.

Would you carry on and drive after being involved in an accident, where you were hurt? Shock always sets in after a few hours and the pain starts the next day…

I don’t understand it, I really don’t. Yeah, we can do without money, food, fuel for me to even get to work, and we can cope with the stress it all puts on us.  Not a clue, just isn’t the word…

In other news, mum is leaving her job with me. It just hasn’t worked out, for my boss and for her.  And she is even more pissed off tonight because she’s had a letter from HMS saying she doesn’t qualify to retire at 60 and will have to work now till she is 65.

The government are just taking the ‘michael’ as well. Working class people, like us, don’t get to reach 65 and 70, we get to get near our retirment age and then we die. Nothing happens then does it. Your spouse or your partner doesn’t get a lump sum in compensation for ALL the taxes you’ve paid into dilligently for the last 50 years. You lose the flipping lot. So why in hell should you have to pay for a pension???

I am so annoyed with the system. It is so screwed up. I hate watching or listening to the news because it is full of people who are blatantly claiming for everything they can, when they should be out working!! there are genuine people who can’t work, can’t do anything and they are the ones who also get nothing and are forced to work through their pain.

I hate this country, I really do.

Going to chill  out for a bit, been a long, long day. 🙂 I could do with a good drink, but driving tomorrow means I can’t.

Have a good evening all, sorry for the rant.

Dawn

Jan 25 2012

Hehehe more writing :)

So although an alarm woke me up at 2:30 am this morning. I don’t feel too bad. Apart from wanting to kick their head in lol.

It was a better day in work, so that made things easier and I took my book into revise for my exam.

Other than that, I’m on a roll in finishing this story. I actually quite like it now. Will have to let you know the final word count when I am done and put a link up.

Anyone interested can find my story REMS at

http://sffezine.blogspot.com/2011/05/science-fiction-freedom-ezine-issue-4-6_31.html

 

There is some great artwork provided for my story as well, I think you’ll love them.

 

If you nosy around at the other episodes, I edited the welcome notes. 🙂

 

Wish me luck  with this exam and I’ll let you know how I get on with it tomorrow.

 

Dawn

Jan 24 2012

writing and revising :)

So,

 

Today has had a little bit of bad news. The publication I was writing my story for has been postponed. Prob till June, I am not worried over it, it actually gives me more time to polish it and see where the characters take me. But I never work well without a deadline. 😦  sigh….  Tonight I decided to chill out and review instead. I’m reading a script from http://www.talentville.com for a lady who requested me too. I’m actually getting into it now, so it always makes a feature easier if you start to enjoy it.

 

As for other things I have my exam tomorrow for scuba diving. I am a little nervous, I hate failing at anything and I just feel really not sort of up to it, don’t know why. Probably just jan blues and too nervous. I want to know more and learn more so I’m comfortable. But it scares me too. Yikes… something I want to do frightens me so much, just doesn’t feel right.

 

Guinea pig,  still manages to scratch a little. I wonder now if he just does it because he’s stressed or upset. As he is on his own. Might see if putting him back with the other will help.

 

Had a bit of a nightmare with the baby pond and the big fish. Weather is so cold and the heaters are working overtime to try and cope with heating them. All the fish don’t like it and my husband is over feeding them. Not good.

 

I’m going to have dinner then revise for the exam. Hope you all have a fab evening. 🙂

 

Dawn

 

Jan 23 2012

Writing,writing,writing….

Been a busy weekend, but yesterday I got the chance to get on with the thing I love the most. Creating a world where I can vanish.

 

You wonder why I love it so much….

 

Let me tell you a story, of the fat kid at school. The kid that was bullied and had no real friends. The kid who had no other world to turn to but one of her own making.

 

In my worlds, I could do anything I wanted. I had friends who wanted to be with me  because of who I was, not what I looked like, and I was loved.

 

I know I am loved now, but creating people around me who also love me has stuck. My characters breathed life into me when there was nothing there. No hope, no joy, nothing at all. They helped me survive when I didn’t want to carry on and  I’ll always be grateful to them for that. More than they’ll ever be able to appreciate, because after all they’re not really real are they?

 

Well they are real to me. They were real then in the mind of a struggling 13 year old and they are even more alive now at 33. (yikes)

 

The world I’ve created for my latest story has come  from a picture. A requested story with an assigned drawing. That drawing of one character sparked the journey of several more. And is now near 4000 words in length. Where it will end yet, I don’t know. They’ve not decided.

 

I say they haven’t decided because they just haven’t. When I see a character, I see everything. Where they grew up, what they went through, who they went through it with. I feel their passions and I want the same things as they do. I become immersed in their world as though it were my own.

 

For those that know me and my Secret King series, they know all too well how many nights Taliri has kept me awake for, begging for more things to do, more places to visit and fun to be had.

 

Sometimes they really are wonderful, then other times (like with Taliri) they can be a pain in the butt. You ever have characters that just won’t shut up?

 

Anyway, the project I was writing for has been pulled for now.  Bummer… but the story is still going on.

 

I will finish it, they’re begging me to carry on with it. A story half written isn’t a story at all.

 

So soon. I’ll post you where it is. 🙂

 

But for now, I’ll bid you all good night…

 

Dawn