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Feb 16 2014

16/2/14 – Flying past.

I can’t stress how much the weeks are flying past now that I am back in work. So this one might be a long one…. sorry. And also a double poster.

Week starting with the 10th

I kind of got off to a bad start with this one. For those who don’t want to read about womanly ‘things’ then look away, this one isn’t for you.

I’ve been married for 16 years this April. And due to my Eating Disorder in the very beginning my periods were all waco. So I went onto something that, at the time would sort them and me out. The Deprovera injection. At first this was really not a great thing. Supposed to sort it out, it vastly made things worse. And I bled for the first 3 mths almost non stop. As a weak person from the Ed, it did make me worse. However, it did settle.

Dec 2012 and the nurse told me how much my weight was affecting blood pressure and she was thinking that coming off the injection was a good idea, to help with the weight side of things. I came off it, it has taken me almost 15 months to regain that monthly womanly thing. (I so don’t need it in my job) but it started off on the Monday and lasted till Friday.

I guess you can call me a monster, as I had weird mood shifts, terrible pains, and the yukky side of it was just something I can’t be doing with, my decision is to go back on the injection. For my health and sanity.

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This affected my weigh in also. There was no weight loss. Water gain, was big, muscle a point and so was bone density. This then deflated me into paranoid and Ed behavioural thinking. If it wasn’t for the people around me being as supportive as they were, then I am afraid I might have started to do stupid things. My brain was screaming at me that I’ve been eating too much and at the weekend I drank myself silly just to drown out the voices for a while.

This really didn’t help me, kinda makes things worse.

Dawn

Feb 9 2014

A busy week.

This week has been a trying one. But aren’t they all?

It was great being with mum over the weekend, but something wasn’t quite right with my car.

Heading to the gym from work on Monday, I popped it next door so they could have a look. I went to do my workout. All was good. Had a phone call from our ACO about the two safe house parrots, they’re both going to be fostered and I am so happy about that. I will of course miss them like crazy, they’re amazing personalities. But I guess this is what I am here for. 😦 I kinda have to be happy that they’re going to a nice home. 

But then it wasn’t good. My car wasn’t safe to drive. And thus my workout extended with a walk home. 30 mins later and a blister 😦 

I spent the rest of the evening with headphones in, doing the last of my transcript for a director. Loved the film, listening to it, and rewinding it to catch all the dialogue, tough. But worth it. 

Tuesday – no uniform and a sore foot. I was off to a great start. Car cost £75 to fix someone else’s mistake. Sucks.  I had an editing session with EJ who was under the weather so it was kinda cut short. And we re-arranged thurs meeting for Sat, so she has some time to recoup. 

Wed – was my weigh in at the gym. I had really good results. 2 lb off. 1 lb on in muscle. Water is up, bone density is up. Visceral fat and BMI is down, Age is down 1 year, lol I am a happy bunny. 

Friday – up and in work early. Long day. Only left the yard at 4.50pm from 5.45 that day. Almost a 12 hour day without a break. Kinda starting to get to me already. Especially after I used to leave the yard on a friday at just after 3pm. 

Sat, again early start. At the gym for a workout. Bought some birdie food, went home, cleaned all cages and the house. Then settled in for some more editing by myself and EJ. I am really happy that it’s coming along as it is. EJ’s a wonderful teacher and she’s picking up on how much I am really trying. I like this, because it teaches me that I am doing well. That I can do prose writing, although it’s harder. I am enjoying the editing process. Getting into my characters heads more, and feeling and reacting as they do. TSK – is going to be worth it. 🙂 

Sunday – today we’re off to see some friends in Manchester. We’re still up early, but thats a good thing. I’ve got reading and time to make more notes for a chat with a possible collaboration partner.  I’m excited for this year. I feel much better in myself now. And things are going well even with the hiccups of life. 

 

Love to you all, and please feel free to comment, talk to me. I’m always around somewhere. 🙂 x 

 

 

Jan 29 2014

Hump day…

The weeks are going quick. 

 

Funny isn’t it. Started out today with great intentions. Jee, didn’t quite end up as good a day as I’d hoped. 

 

Got a puncture at work. Of course my fault. It’s the way I drive… lol, not the face I visit some really untidy places where you can pick up nails like I don’t know what…. but oh well. It was sorted and I was back in the road in an hour. Lets hope it doesn’t happen again. Or I’d be in the running for a ticking off. 

 

Busy isn’t in it at the moment, two big projects rounding to a head this weekend and I’m heading out to meet the lancashire wrimos for the first time. Preston here I come. 🙂 

Then I have been asked to take part in another project. I’m looking forward to sinking my teeth into this one. (pun intended) it’s a vampire story. So can’t wait for Feb…. 

 

Results at the gym were great too. I’m not getting hung up on the weight side of it, I’ve not lost as much as my ED would like. But I am still telling him to sod off. But my stats are on the UP!!! water is better, bone density is better. Muscle is better. Visceral fat is down 1 point. Which is massive, I do want to get it much lower though. 🙂 So that I am in the healthy range. 

Positive energy. 

 

Dawn 🙂 x 

Jan 26 2014

Week and weekend over…

Wow,

I can’t really believe how quick it went. Not just the weekend, but my first week back in work.

There isn’t much that has changed, bar the facts that some of my customers got lost along the way side. So I spent last week getting them back. With a little luck I’ll be back on track to targets, jee wiz. I can tell you, I don’t want that again. You work so hard for it, then it’s gone and it’s like you have to start from scratch almost all over again. Not good, at all.

Pic of hubby and my lil monster 🙂 Image

I’ve had two pretty big projects going on this last few weeks. One I started before work, and one I managed to spend the full day on today. It’s been good to get work coming my way. Tough it might be, but if I really want to get out there more this year. Dedication to other projects as well as my own is a must.

My project well it kinda stalled a bit. Oh dear…

Monday – Friday- back in work, and then the gym, getting home was a bit  late, spending time with the birds and sorting out myself for the following few days. It’s been hectic to say the least and might take a fair few hours off what I can do with my time. I will soon get into the routine at work and with the home stuff. So although it’s hard at the moment, it won’t always be hard. TSK is still moving forward just a little bit slower for a while, with a few deadlines on the cards.

I’ve had some fab results though in the three weeks I’ve been aiming to get fitter and healthier. I won’t talk numbers, really as they’re hard for me to deal with, but needless to say, I’m well on my way to a fitter lifestyle. The drinking water is hard, specially now I am back in work, but I’m trying my very best to keep things moving.

My latest challenge, is to eat enough protein to help get my body working right, so that the weight can come off properly and help to build muscle so that I can work out and feel better.

It’s amazing the diff just a few weeks makes, my energy levels are higher, I want to do things. Although it’s been a tough week going back to work. I have found that it also wasn’t as bad as I thought it would be.

My energy levels were crap, before I even broke my elbow and I’m just putting that down to the crap diet and no real exercise.

So feeling positive and looking forward to another good week.

Hope you’re all doing great.

Dawn