Wow busy night, been editing and polishing my script and stuff to send to new York, so that’s it, I have done as much as I think I can, so now lets see what happens hey…

Im hoping it gets a good review if nothing else, so keep your fingers crossed.

Anyways, as for everything else, what’s happened so far this week, ummm not much, Monika has decided to leave the flat I moved her to a few months back, she cant afford it now, so she is moving in with Kate, which is good in a sense, at least they wont be working together and living together, that would be a recipe for disaster… heheheh

Nothing else much has happened, its really quiet in work, and I hope to god that Kate is going to stay, I don’t want to be left alone again like I was late last year, I know I have some other good friends, but its really not the same…

I also hope our jobs are safe to, am thinking if it is so slack now it’s going to be way worse in winter when no farmer wants boxes….

Life is really weird aint it.

I’ve not done great with food this week, been sick twice, and hardly ate in the first place, so managed some bacon and eggs tonight and got some for dinner tomorrow got to try and keep my energy levels up. I still aint sleeping and am finding it so hard to want to do anything at all this week, I am really having to force myself, anyone out there got a bomb to shove up my ass…. lol

Anyways, I have had enough typing, for today anyway, I really wish I had a printer, got so much stuff to do and nothing to print it off on……… grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr………… Oh well I am defiantly going to get one next week, sod what Paul says, he’s been buying fishing stuff so am getting something I need…

Hope everyone is ok, and sorry to those who I haven’t said hello to in a couple of days, been a pretty crap week so far, and I don’t think its going to get much better, think I need some time off, maybe I will do soon….

Love ya all…. Dawn xxxxxx

So today has been one of the worst ones in my entire life, I don’t know where to start really…
Well ok, from the top, so our manager comes round today and tells Monika as from after her holiday there is no work for her with us anymore…. Like WHAT??????

I know its quiet and they are really penny pinching like but come on…

So we go for a few drinks, at Kate’s new place, of which Monika brings a very nice bottle of vodka, and we drink, she then is very ill, and my other friend remembers something from her past that kills off all the ambience,

All in all a pretty shit day, and also my other friend had his mirror smashed on his car, so just not good….

Am going to bed to commiserate

Dawn xx

Had a great morning, been up early and managed to speak to my friend on the polish chat messenger, which was quite hard, Im not that good at polish….

I went for my riding lesson, which was great, I sweated buckets, and am sure poor Rufus just knew I wasn’t in the mood for it, he was acting up, he broke his record for how many poo’s he can have in 45 mins, and he kept stopping to trump, bless him, he must have felt awful.

Michelle has been having extra lessons, while I haven’t been able to go, so she is a little better which was good, as she kept Dimple going really well today. She had a canter, but I didn’t feel up to it, with my foot being bad and all. Don’t know why, it’s gone from being a sore hip, to a bad foot, and no pain in the hip… weird…

Anyways, had a few more emails off New York, the contract is back with the signature from their end, so am raring to go….

I hope this is a good thing, I know it aint easy trusting people when you are short on cash, but I suppose you don’t get anywhere in life, without trusting at least a few people…

Anyways, as for how I am feeling…

Ummm, not too bad at the moment, weight has gone down just a little, but am managing mostly to eat twice a day, even if its only a sandwich, or cheese on toast, but am making the effort, and I know I will get there.

I have an appointment on the 11th with a new psychiatrist up here, so will see how that goes, got the dentist on Monday, so will see how my teeth are as well.

I hate having an ed, as it affects your teeth, and I do love my smile, its one of the things I do actually like, and almost everyone thinks its infectious…. lol… me infectious…

Anyways, for neo and nex, missed you both this week, the time zone diff sucks… but I hope you will be on later today so we can chat…

Now after my ride and managing some breakfast I am off for a kip, my eyes are shutting now while I type, not good…

Speak soon all, and thinking about ya…

Dawn xx

Sorry everyone, been a bit of a busy bee this week, and its Wednesday already.
I helped Kate move on Saturday, which was funny, on Sunday just went to the car boot and visited my Nan, who had been in hospital all morning. She dropped the toilet lid on her arm which split it open. Silly Billy, oh the joys of getting old, he skin is like tissue paper.

On Monday did nothing apart from write, and relax.

Then back to work and oh it’s just so boring.

Oh well.

So now back to writing again, and then work tomorrow,

Catch you all soon. Dawn xx

So not knowing where to start really, thought I would bring you all up to speed,

had a really busy but strange week, I met up with my friend Sian on Monday, which was great, but it kind of put a damper on how things are for me right now.

It’s so great to see her so happy, and I am really glad she has found someone who will love her like she deserves, I just been thinking a lot about why I am not happy, and I can’t put my finger on it.

When I sit and think about it, I don’t know how I am feeling this week, lost, and tired for sure, did some extra hours yesterday to save going in today, and went to pick Monika and Kate up at 5 yesterday morning, worked till 5 and then took them home.
But it’s not just that I am tired.
I don’t know, just a blagh week I think..
Anyways, after feeling ill with a cold, I took a break from the computer, and my writing, and have got up this morning, to have a great shower; (The gas ran out) leaving me with a head full of shampoo and freezing, while I rushed outside half naked to swap the bottles over.

I still feel a bit tired, but am defiantly refreshed and raring to go. Am off to Southport later, to help Kate move to a new flat, so am sure that will be really funny, and then I got some new ideas to put to my screenplay.
A friend gave me some great feedback the other day, and think there are a couple of extra words here and there, which will make it flow a little better.

So I hope everyone, else is doing ok, and sorry for not checking in on everyone in the last few days…

Take care all and have a great weekend.

Dawn x