Category poem

Aug 10 2004

10/08/04

Worth it!

 

Just to let everyone know that this fight is worth it.

ed does have to be locked away for good

he is not worth all this pain.

 

I am struggling with recovery but each day I get stronger, I learn to fight him back some more, learn to cope with food normally and not panic for feeling guilty over it.

 

there is normality out there, with no fear that gaining weight will ruin us,

no fear that it will destroy what we are and what we have become.

 

We can all do this, get down this windy road.

many paths to turn back, entice us,

but together

holding hands,

we can keep going forward

 

We are all worth so much more than this rubbish.

We all deserve so much more.

 

Together we can do this,

and I believe in us all.

 

love and hugs

 

Dawn

By kanundra • Posted in poem
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Jul 28 2004

28/07/04

 

I wanted to say this for so long, I needed to say this,

I want you out of my life, I want you gone.

You dont help me,

You dont love me,

All you do is hate me.

 

I need love,

I need help,

I will accept me.

 

The inside me who is nearly free, is scared to lose you in some ways

You were there for me through good times and bad,

You helped me whenI though no one else could,

but now I know there are others who can help

and I want to say good bye forever,

never do I want to see you again,

 

So this is it, should I cry,

No,

I am happy,

For once I am happy, I am glad,

and I will be free.

 

No doubt you will still haunt me,

no doubt you will still be there, at the back of my mind,

Niggling,

Taunting,

But I will ignore you,

and eventually you will get the message,

YOU will become the weak one,

and I the strong ONE.

So good bye,

Good riddence,

 

I will never ever miss you again.

Jul 20 2004

30/07/04

 

I think this is something that needs to be said as too many of us are saying this and we dont have to …..

ya all.

Sorry

do we all have to say it,

for how we are feeling for who we are,

non of us should be sorry for anything we say, or anything we do that we think is bad,

as it probably isnt.

We all need to talk

We all need to vent

So I wont except sorry from anyone,

and I promise I will try and not say it too.

we have nothing to be sorry for

we didnt ask for this ed,

it just happens,

and we must try and fight it, not be sorry

for who we are, why we are,

share our experience, help each other listen and care

love and hug

I wont say I am sorry ever again and let this ed win.

 

had to tell you all, and please dont be sorry, we are who we are.

and we must all try and accept it.

 

Love and hugs

Dawn

Jul 8 2004

08/07/04

Inside me

Deep down inside,
You can’t see me
Hiding, trying to be free

Deep down inside,
I am trying to worm out
This happy part of me

Deep down inside
I am trying to get out
Instead of taking flight

Oh no, there I go deeper, darker,
No light in here, it gets so much harder

But I see a pin point, a tiny light, something to fight for
And I wriggle on, trying to be more

With each wiggle, I get stronger
With each wiggle, I get closer

I am going to do it
I am going to come out

Be me and be free, into sunshine and not night.

Dawn Chapman 8th July 2004


By kanundra • Posted in poem
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Jun 19 2004

19/06/04

Inner voices

The inner voices in my head, keep telling me to stay in bed.
Hide away where no one knows, cry forever and blow my nose.

The inner voices in my head keep telling me to starve again,
Say NO to all the things I crave, and end up in an early grave.

The inner voices in my head say lock away all my pain, and sit inside when it rains.

The inner voices in my head, keep telling me wish I were dead.

Yet I do not wish to die,
The inner voice would sometimes cry.

Fed up of all this pain and hate,

I want to open out that gate

Be strong and bold,

Knock that inner voice out cold.

Dawn Chapman. 19th June 2004.


By kanundra • Posted in poem
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