9/09/200617:21

Hi everyone

Just a quick update, I am doing really good at the moment, recovery is hard, but I am fighting ed and winning, it is possible to keep ed at bay, but its hard to know when the fight will be won.

Keep fighting everyone, and keep smiling.

hugs Dawn

xx

Hi everyone

Things are looking up for me at the moment,

Yeah there is still no word on the test results for typsey and spooky is showing some of the same signs that he had, but I know she can fight this.

We have had a letter from the solicitor saying that the third party has admitted full liability though and that means we will be getting paid out soon, so we can get another car, that is good, and it also means we should have something left to put towarsds our land rent this year, that should make it easier for us,

I am feeling more positive, although some of my friends are having a really hard time at the moment and I am sending some positive thoughts too them, (((Lou and Chantelle))) I cant be with them in person, but I am in spirit.

I want everyone to know this is all possible to get better, we have to keep fighting and keep our spirits up in any ways we can. We aint alone none of us.

Love Dawn

Xxx

Hey, had some bad news today, it has now been confirmed that our other cat, my cat has FIP, and now I am stuck and dont know what to do.

I gave into ed, I was sick after my tea, and I feel so so so so bad. When everything was going wrong a month ago, I still managed to keep him at bay, but I just couldnt, it was like he got in my head and that was it.

I wont be going backwards though, i have to trest this as a blip, and not as total failure.

I will keep going, I am getting there, I suppose small setbacks are supposed to happen.

Or are they, is it not just inevitable that we will return to Ed again and again through out life.

I want to know ???

Why do I seem to get to a point and then go back, is it just always going to happen.

Has anyone really beaten him for good. ?

I am just feeling a bit lost.

Love to you all.

Dawn

Xxx

Hey

I just want you all to know whats been going on with me,

I am still fighting ed, and am still in recovery, although it is hard, I have been working sooo hard to try and pay the money for the car, it has put a big strain on myself, but I am doing okay, i have a few issues which I am struggling with, but am doing as good as possible,

I want eveyone to know, know matter what even if ed may be there, we can all beat him, together, we can beat anything.

Pull together, all of us, and we can over come everything.

Loads of hugs and love,

Dawn

xxx

This really sucks REALLY

I am struggling so so so much there is nothing anyone can do only me,

We had to have our cat put to sleep on thursday, he was 2 years old, and adorable. He contracted an illness called FIP, which can spread from cat to cat

We had thought he was a little sick, he had had worms the week before and never seemed to get any better after worming, he was losing weight and not eating a lot, so we decided an overhaul was the best thing, we took our other cat Spooky too.

The vet examined him and said he was in a very bad way, his liver wasnt working properly and she thought he may have either had a tumor or an allergic reaction to the worming tablets.

Typsey was sent straight to their bigger practice where he was given an xray of his stomach and he had blood taken.

Two hours later we gets a phone call, its this FIP ( I went to animal school and I’d never heard of it) It infects the cat and the cat cannot fight it, basically all his internal organs were finally shutting down.  There was treatment to keep him alive for perhaps another few weeks but it wasn’t worth hurting him anymore, you could see the sadness in his eyes.

Paul was with him when he went to sleep, I couldnt be there.

On thursday my best friendSiancame up to comfort me, she bought me a lovely gift, a necklace and a bottle of wine. Both went down a treat.

I know drinking isnt the answer but it helped me get to sleep. I woke up fri morning though in such pain, I had the runs and then when I tried to have a drink I started to vomit. YUK drunk I was and I felt it.

I can normally drink much more than a bottle of wine but with not eating much all day as I was too upset I think it just went to me head.

I cannot think of a worse year in my entire life.

We went to see my nan who is in hospital on Fri night, and she is in a bad way, the doc’s dont seem to know what to do. I don’t think they can do anything.

My mum then rang me with the test results of her Xray. There is no change. How can there be no change she should be getting better from phunmonia surley its been two months. She said it could be scarring on her lungs so she has to see a specialist next week.

I just wish things would get easier you know, everything is just such a mess, I dont know where I am anymore.

Ed is calling me and I dont want to go back, but its getting so hard.

Umm I think this post is very very long. I should go,

Love ya all.

Hi

Just to say that some things are looking a bit more positive for me,

hope to get a new car at the weekend, even though we have only paid for half of it, the man who we getting it off is trusting us till we get Pauls compo claim.

We heard from the vet and typsey did die of FIP. so we have had to put a warning up on the caravan site.

Spooky is having a blood test on Mon, but I think she will be ok, she is middle aged so fingers crossed,

mum has to have a cat scan to see if the scaring on her lungs is scars and not something else, and my nanas problems are just the same,

Slowly getting there,

Keep fighting everyone,

Love ya all,

Dawn

xx