Life is a mixture of many things, and all of them we love, hard or not.

My Nan died last night, and she’s been battling to stay alive for so long. Her strong love for my granddad keeping her here in this world…

To see the two of them together you wouldn’t believe they were 84+ they held hands and gave quick kisses of affection…. it really was true love for them.

I am really sad now that she is gone, she is free from pain and her suffering eased but I feel my granddad won’t be far behind her, together they could brave anything, and now….. He will be heartbroken…. inconsolable….

Please everyone, be sweet with those you love today…. give them an extra hug, and feel what’s inside…. in the end it’s all we have…

Dawn

So am busy writing, and really getting into my latest script…

I find when in a world that I come to love and enjoy being in, I don’t and won’t come out of it, it becomes me, and I it.

Anyone else feels this when they write…

When writing my trilogy, The Kiebal series, one of my main characters dies, and I cried buckets for weeks, am I just really crazy….

ummm

Dawn xx

My oh my, where does the time go.

It’s beyond me….

I am feeling a little better so am managing to eat and not get tummy ache.

Been doing some research and trying to do some more writing. Umm not too easy, but plodding on.

Anyways, not doing much tonight, so catch ya all later. Dawn

Earlier

Is there anyone with anything interesting to say out there, I am a little sad and bored to see nothing much other than jokes and blah blah on net log today…

Sometimes I wish people would just talk about themselves for once, how we all can get to know each other and become friends if we don’t talk…

For those of my friends who are going to read this, thanks for chatting today, and am feeling a little better, wondering what I can try and eat for my tea, as I don’t wan to be kept up all night with tummy ach again, I want to go to work tomorrow, I need the money, sad aint it, when we have to go to work to keep surviving.

Oh well not long, only 12mths to go and no more debts, then we can plan lots of great stuff to do together, our small mortgage gone, and loads of free cash, heheheheh, cant wait…

Take care all.

Dawn x

12^th June 2007

Just to let everyone know am feeling much better, and have been doing a little bit of stuff today.

Am going back to work tomorrow, even though I don’t really want to but have to help pay the bills. Life hey.

Anyways, been doing some research on funding for a film, and also been writing…

Thanks for everyone who has been inspirational today, hope to catch you all soon…

Dawn

Anyone else interested msg me I got an hour left to chat before I go off to bed…

heheheh

9^th June

That’s it, I have had enough of friends, I don’t want any, any more, they just fucking suck…

On Thursday it was my friend’s birthday, and she went out and had too much to drink, so cancelled our horse riding class on the Friday, yeah I was upset and didn’t say anything, but now, because I cant do something with her at the time she wants I get all this shit….

I don’t think so, if she doesn’t want my friendship anymore then forget it, all the time I do things for people, and all I get is rubbish in return. I am sat here now crying, because I am sick in the first place and have been for three days, and because I get nothing but hassle off people, and I have had enough..

Yes I feel like going and taking a razor and hurting myself, and I want to do this because someone is being shit to me.

I don’t want to do anything anymore, I haven’t eaten properly in months, and I am sick at least twice a week.

Oh yeah they pretend they care, and they don’t want to lose me as a friend, then tough, because every one can get lost.

Enough is enough and that’s it. NO MORE…

Dawn x

LATER

Yes I had a bad morning, and as I wasn’t feeling well anyways it took its affect on my psych. Am feeling a little better now, still upset with my friend but hey, that’s friends for you.
Am supposed to have been going out tonight but cant face it, hadn’t eaten all day but just have now, didn’t enjoy it but know I cant function on nothing.

I think I might stop out for a bit but then will come home going back later to pick the others up when they eventually come out of the pubs they like.

Hope everyone has some great plans for a great evening, and thanks to all who responded this morning,

sometimes words of kindness and good thoughts are all we need.

Dawn x