Talking about my Eating Disorder and current issues.

It’s been a real while since I’ve sort of really wanted to chat about some things. 

Well, for those on my list who might be triggered, please look away. 

Over the 4 years, since I’ve been in recovery. I left Cheadle Royal with a new purpose in life, to really try and enjoy me. And not to let food or things rule my head. And for the most part I have. I’ve not let the ‘weight’ worry me too much. A few people upset me along the way, but I tried not to let ED back in big time. 

This last year’s been really tough, with everything that has been going on. But I’ve taken it in my stride. I wanted to be me. Not be ED. 

After continually worrying over my weight issue, and with work not helping. I drive a wonderful delivery van. But, it’s a food van. And temptation to ‘eat’ is always there. 

Chatting to a few customers this last month about diet etc, triggered me to want to find a solution that would keep me healthy and not let ED back in my hand running havoc. 

I’ve chosen to use this particular diet. Where for most of the working week. My intake is mostly liquids. This will help keep my focus ‘off the food on the van’ and give my body all the nutrients it actually needs throughout the day, without just ‘not eating’ because in the past this has just triggered bulimia after my evening meal. 

Last week, I followed the plan for three days, and for this one four. I think four will be good for me, so that I can eat something as a treat one of the working days. 

I am being monitored properly. Because this is a big decision for me, and one where I do need the emotional support and watching from a professional. 

We’ve chatted about a goal and once I’ve reached that goal, then I’ll move my intake up slightly so that it will stay steady. But for the most part, it’s really to try and stop the rubbish I’m just continuing to eat while driving, and it includes breakfast which is something I wasn’t doing anymore. 

Weekends… well I’m not going to change much there. I’ve still had the breakfast start to the day. But lunch and dinner with hubby will be required. And I am not giving up alcohol… so ner… lol 

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In other news, even though I was supposed to be off work this week. I’ve managed to get a good few things done. 

Editing with EJ is so much easier on my macbook. And I’m really happy with it, although it’s taken some getting used too. 

The fish, are trying to spawn again. Jeeze… but all is well. 

And Bobby, is turning into right a little character. Love him to bits. He’s sitting watching everything I do. 

Well must get back to it. 

Catch you soon. 

Dawn x x 

Mac Book Pro

EEEK….. so after the shopping spree and weighing up all the pro’s and con’s of working with another windows computer with all my writing etc. 

I listened to all the advice I’ve been getting and took the plunge, I went for a Mac…. 

 

Lots to get used too, lots to transfer over and probably lots of time to adjust. I am sure I will get there though. 

 

Very happy though now. I have something that actually looks ‘bomb proof’ lol 

 

Happy Sat evening all. I’m off out now with hubby, a friend and my mum for dinner out. 🙂 

 

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Sat, catch up.

Been a hectic week as per usual. But I’ve started to get back into things. 

I should have been off work starting yesterday, but circumstances changed and it was better for me and for them if I moved it till the end of the month, so I have. I’ve managed this week to re-read and catch up with lots of things though. And TSK being one of them. 

 

However, my editing session on Thurs didn’t quite go as I’d planned. The reception on my phone was spotty, I couldn’t get my blue-tooth to work with Skype (Which it always has) and after 45 mins of not quite hearing things and trying to make do we called it a day early so that I could calm down… lol…

 

So, I’m in the market today for a new computer… one which Skype will run on and work perfectly. One which will make my writing so much easier. So shopping today with good ole mum 🙂 

 

I’ve got loads of pictures of Bobby, he’s been a great little mate to have this week as hubby has gone full time at work. 

 

Happy to say things are getting better. 🙂 So here’s to a nice new day and a happy Sat and Sunday. 

 

Looking forward to the end of the month. The All England Koi Show. And spending time with hubby. 🙂 

 

Catch you all soon.