05/09/04

 

OMG OMG OMG

 

I am so so so so so happy!

 

I got on the screenwriting course,

 

omg

 

Thankyou so much yesterday Sarah for telling me to give it some more time,

I had given up thinking I wasnt good enough and they didnt want me,

hehehehehehhehehehehehe

 

I cant speak, some good news to brighten my bad day,

 

Thankyou to everyone, but especailly Lotti Bex Sarah and Pauline,

 

You are all wonderful here and I am so happy I found you all

 

Love ya

loads n loads

huggies

Dawn

Xxxxxxxxxxxxxx

28/07/04

 

I wanted to say this for so long, I needed to say this,

I want you out of my life, I want you gone.

You dont help me,

You dont love me,

All you do is hate me.

 

I need love,

I need help,

I will accept me.

 

The inside me who is nearly free, is scared to lose you in some ways

You were there for me through good times and bad,

You helped me whenI though no one else could,

but now I know there are others who can help

and I want to say good bye forever,

never do I want to see you again,

 

So this is it, should I cry,

No,

I am happy,

For once I am happy, I am glad,

and I will be free.

 

No doubt you will still haunt me,

no doubt you will still be there, at the back of my mind,

Niggling,

Taunting,

But I will ignore you,

and eventually you will get the message,

YOU will become the weak one,

and I the strong ONE.

So good bye,

Good riddence,

 

I will never ever miss you again.

30/07/04

 

I think this is something that needs to be said as too many of us are saying this and we dont have to …..

ya all.

Sorry

do we all have to say it,

for how we are feeling for who we are,

non of us should be sorry for anything we say, or anything we do that we think is bad,

as it probably isnt.

We all need to talk

We all need to vent

So I wont except sorry from anyone,

and I promise I will try and not say it too.

we have nothing to be sorry for

we didnt ask for this ed,

it just happens,

and we must try and fight it, not be sorry

for who we are, why we are,

share our experience, help each other listen and care

love and hug

I wont say I am sorry ever again and let this ed win.

 

had to tell you all, and please dont be sorry, we are who we are.

and we must all try and accept it.

 

Love and hugs

Dawn