Turn back

I think about you all the time,

I wonder are you still alive?

I wish I could turn back the clock,

I wish I could help you.

You were my world, my only love.

My every hearts desire.

But what a way to end our love, and never again to see, anything but that burning fire.

Why did it have to be?

I look for you every night, but I know you’ve gone for good.

I wish I could have saved you, cause now there’d be some hope.

Maybe I could learn to live without you by my side.

Maybe one day I can turn and walk away, I know I have tried.

But as I think of you and the moments that we shared,

I truly do not believe this love could ever be curbed.

Six years I miss you,

Eight years I’ve loved you.

You’ll never be forgotten,

I’ll never let you go.

My love I know will never falter but grows in every way.

Forever you’ll be with me, till my dying day.

Written for Jake Worthington,

Dawn  Chapman Jan 28^th  2000

Life

Why do things have to be so complicated?

Why does life have to be so cruel?

I’m hurting now as much as ever, and Paul could never know.

Yes I love him dearly, more than I could say.

But is it just enough to last me through today.

I want so much in life,

To be a perfect wife, maybe a mother.

But is it meant to be?

You hurt me so deeply, when you left that night.

I feel things lately will never turn out right.

I can’t believe it happened, that you were wrenched away.

I hope I will see you again one day.

You helped me so much, you were my only friend.

The only one who loved me, at least until the end.

Why can’t life be perfect?

Why can’t I be me?

Am I destined to hide forever and never be free?

Dawn Chapman 28^th January 1999

Secrets

Deep dark secrets are hidden inside,

Fresh thoughts and wild ambition,

Desire takes part in all life, but love takes over.

Pain and sorrow, wither and die.

Born again to the world.

Live, Love and Cry.

Time

What is Time?

Day to day.

I don’t feel,

Why feel?

What is all this, but fear and hate.

The moods swing,

High,

Low,

Will it ever settle and let me go.

Dawn Chapman 1999

Me

Day after day,

Year after year,

My heart grows older,

My fears so clear.

My sorrows so deep,

My mind so confused.

Life is uncaring,

People so rude.

Yet some where inside me I know there is hope.

Somewhere inside me I know your there.

A loving side of me, that I don’t understand.

One day you’ll come through properly.

One day you will be me.

Dawn Lloyd 1997

(married name is Chapman)

Fear

A hill at night, whispers in the trees, fear accomplishes nothing, so don’t live in fear.

If shadows scare you, and the pounding of feet, sing a song look away but do not weep.

I’ll always be near you in mind heart and soul.

If death is forever we’ll make it our home.

Sunshine forever please do not frown.

My heart is open your love so renown.

If storms head our way, we’ll brave them together.

But please believe me the sun shines forever.

If smoking gives cancer, then what will rain bring, all that Carbon Monoxide we’ve all been deceived.

People are harder the world heads for war.

What brings tomorrow, but Murder and gore.

If God exists then does the Devil too?

If they exist then why you and me?

Time ticks by but life I won’t squander,

Each ray of pure sun shine,

Each great clap of Thunder.

Life brings me happiness, friends and good times.

Will death be the same, or will it all start again?

Dawn Lloyd 1995

(married name is Chapman)