Category Hope

Nov 2 2004

02/11/04

 

 

Oh this sucks ed sucks, and I am struggling like mad,

Its been four months, since I purged, and felt the need too, but I am going the other way, am finding it so hard to eat, and I hate it, hate it HATE IT

Dont know whats worse, dont know which demon is the most horrid,

 

THEY BOTH ARE.

 

Swapped one for the other, and I feel so bad,

 

I want some answers but I have none,

 

Wrote this today, for my friends, they my inspiration, and I love them to pieces,

 

Fight

 

Keep on fighting we must,

For in each other we trust,

To keep our spirits high,

To never let them die,

 

From feelings deep inside, we know we cannot hide,

so together hand in hand,

 

WE WILL MAKE OUR STAND

 

Reaching out across this land,

becoming stronger our great line longer,

 

The inner sanctum we will protect,

 

The inner child we will respect.

 

(added this too,)

 

For all of us here, together we will not fail,

together we can see the light,

together for eternity we will fight,

 

For hope guides us, and sets us free.

You will be you, and I will be me,

 

No matter how long, no matter how hard,

together holding hands we will walk this land.

happy free together eternaly.

 

Love you all guys,

Dawn

xxxxx

Oct 25 2004

25/10/04

 

Well everyone I had the most wonderful weekend ever with my two new bestest friends,

((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((huge hugs))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))) 4 them both,

((((((((Love you loads)))))))))

It was so cool to spend some quality time with them, and I loved every minute of it,

Unfortunatly for me, ed tried to ruin everything, and my husband kept telling me off,  cause I wasnt eatin enough, grrr, i did ok though I when I had taken lottie to the station we went for our tea and I ate a full meal, struggled from start to finish but I ate it.

 

Please everyone try this week for the pain and hurt we see in each other, is just the same for all of us, and we dont see it in ourselves,

 

Its hard and I know this, and I knwo we can also do it, together,

 

Love you all, sorry this is short,

Love Dawn

By kanundra • Posted in Hope
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Oct 10 2004

10/10/04

 

heheheh well I was so so tired last night couldnt come on here, I had been up since 330 and had a long and wonderful day,

 

Meeting Bex was amazing, she is an absoloute star, at first I think I did most of the talking but i broke the ice so to speak,

 

A funny story I must say is this, I got to the train station and needed the toilet so on finding them realised they were locked, and I then got on the train when it arrived, I did not know there would be a toilet on the train, and waited 2 hours to get to leeds before I had to go, poor Bex, we met in wh smiths and I ran off to find the loo, I was bursting, didnt even get to give her a hug. awwwww but she did get a good one when we got to a coffee shop.

 

Bex I had the most wonderful day and I hope it was as good for you as it was for me,

 

You are a very special and beautiful inside and out, and I love ya more now than ever, and I really consider you my sister now, I am stuck to you like glue from now on.

 

I cant wait to see you again.

 

The whole day was wonderful and I cried a little on the train on the way home, I so wanted to stay with you, and it seemed to go really quickly,

 

We both did amazing yesterday managing lunch together, and I am so so proud of us both.

Love you hun and I hope to speak to you very soon

(((((((((((((((Bex))))))))))))))))))))

Dawn xxxxxx

By kanundra • Posted in Hope
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May 25 2001

25/05/01

Lost

Sometimes all I want to do is write, to let my pain hit paper.
Sometimes all I want to do is cry, and let my tears flood over.

There’s so much hurt and fear inside, jut once I wish I could live, as I have tried.

No more pain, no more fear and no more lonely words.

My eyes fill with tears, as I put on this face.
I know it’s sad, and bad, but I can’t stand the pace.

I lie, I cheat, even though I know it’s wrong.
I really can’t cope , I’m just not that strong.

All I get is confusion, surrounded by noise, suffering illusion’s
Sometimes I feel I’ll never be found, destined to stay in this deep dark cloud.

I ask, “Why am I here?”
No one loves me, no one needs me, so who on Earth would miss me.

Takes time to heal all wounds they say.
This pain I know won’t go away.
My heart cries out, my soul aches.

And I shout “WHY ME?”
I feel disgusting, I feel a freak.
My minds a mess. My body so weak.

I wish so much it would go away.
I wish that I could heal one day.

Dawn Chapman May 2001