So, sometimes I cant be bothered to get up and write. but here I am…

Plenty of time for that now I think.

I am looking for a change, moved house, now time to move job…

Day care yesterday was a very interesting one. Seems Shirly isnt ready for me to go down to once a fortnight just yet, she thinks at the present time, I am going through too much to be able to cope with it.
I must admit, wednesday was a bad day, mostly because Paul was working all day and all i could hear my my stupid voice telling me to not eat.
I can say that with some time to relax, i ignored it, and got up and had cereal.
So one major task accomplished this week.
Not to fall backwards when faced with something new.
I did really well.

Yan, came yesterday, and I gotta admit i love this guy to bits he has such a sense of humour, he ripped the plumber who fitted our bathroom over the weekend to bits, and now has to go about fixing this guys mistakes, plus he is fitting a new floor for us bless him.

I think this weekend is going to be really stressful, frank is picking me up after he finishes work and we are going to get the removal van, there we go straight to his to start packing stuff up so we can get them moved on sat, I dont think i am quite ready for it yet, but think i do feel much more prepared for it now.

The house over the week has been gradually cleaned from top to bottom, and i still think my mother will moan….

Oh dear….

Anyways, as for my writing, ummm better get a move on, got another chapter to write i think, then I am done with ‘life is a dream’ major accomplishment, this has been brewing ever since I met Jake all those years ago. My heart still aches for him…

Dawn xxx

My cat woke me up fighting this morning.

How nice of her.

Hope you are all well.
I am off shopping for a new sink and toilet today, how interesting, and i have to be up at this time. WHY?
I gotta go into work with paul to get into preston, Boring.

School runs, they do my head in, kids are never quiet enough for me.

Have a good day all

Dawn xxx

wow, i can tell you somethings really improve, this new laptop i have is wireless, and its ace, i have had it all over the house today, and am now tucked up in bed, as we have no heating. Our gas boiler is getting moved and is in bits along with half of the kitchen and living room.

I will upload some pics when i get my phone stuff on here, and then can transfer them, there is so much going on here, its crazy.

Well worth it though….

Yesterday, i was supposed to be having a lazy day with paul, but yeah it never happened, curly the guy who was taking the boiler out was here all day and then mum turned up and we ended up moving 4 tonne of rubble down the bottom of the garden where paul has now used it to make a rockery with.

It was serious hard work..

Today curly has been back and is nearly there with the boiler, the flagger has been and is nearly finished with our flags, the shed is on them but not finished yet, and the electric guy was supposed to come and didnt.

Even though i have been online most of the day, i have been so busy.

I moved everything from the sitting room which will be mums bedroom into the spare room, which will be our dining room.

And then did loads of writing…

OOOOhhhh aand dont forget the million cups of tea i had to brew..

Am seriously hating the kettle right now……

Oh well, it is actually good to be back with everything and to be able to do what i want is great.

You wont get rid of me now heheheheheheh am back for good…

Love to ya all.

Dawn xx

So today I have learned even more about the person that I am and why I behaved as I did over Christmas.

I know that Kate has hurt me a lot and in the past this sort of friendship has been what I have hung onto. No matter what the consequences to my own health have been.

I realised that when I meet someone for the first time, and they do take an interest in me, and show that they like me, that I just jump in head first and don’t think about what they are offering me as a friend.

A true friendship works both ways, and isn’t all one sided.

In my C.B.T class today Zoë asked me what I really thought, and she asked many more questions.

I know I am not such a bad person, I have such great qualities and I know people do want me as a friend.

Abi, suggested writing Kate a letter explaining things, but Pam didn’t agree. Pam said that if it had been her friend and she had behaved like that she would have just forgotten about her.

Yes it’s easy to say things when it’s not your friend. But I expected so much more from Kate, and as in my childhood, I let things develop in a way that isn’t good.

I can’t say how I am going to handle going back to work and on seeing Kate, but I can say that I have to do a bit more thinking about it.

The rest of the day was really good,

Dawn x

So today I spend with some friends and then went to see my dad, who just got back from Brugg and bought me chocolates, lol,

Am really really scared about tomorrow, but I guess we shall see,

Love to you all out there, and stay safe.

Dawn xx