Pain hurts, yet I feel nothing.
Words scream at me, yet I hear nothing.
The mirror shows me what is real, but I see nothing.
Emotion is strong, yet I block it out.
I want to be free, but I deny everything.
I am scared, so I don’t eat.
I am upset, so I don’t eat.
I am everything I hate, so I don’t eat.
All I want is to feel, but I can’t.
All I want is to be accepted, but I can’t accept myself.
Inside me is a voice, and it wants pain.
Inside me is a voice, who brings nothing but shame
Inside me is a voice, driving me slowly insane.
© 2008 Dawn
Cant sleep tonight, as the pictures in my mind begin to take over.
Cant sleep tonight for the fear of growing older.
It is time to realise life is for living, and not just existing.
Cant sleep tonight as my heads in a spin
Cant sleep tonight, but dont want to give in.
It is time to wake up, and feel sunlight on my skin.
Cant sleep tonight, as all i do is fight,
Cant sleep tonight so all i can do is write,
For Stewart, Alex, Neo, Martin, Clare, Chris, and those who support me every time I come on, this short poem is for you…
From Dawn to you all……
When life is full of hard times, and its not often they are good.
Think of all the things we’ve been through together, as you know we should.
Through thick and thin, life passes by, without any time to stop and cry,
It can be short it can be sweet, but I am so glad that we did meet.
A true friend is hard to find, and mostly we are blinded,
by the things we think are important, as we do not often know.
An honest friend is here to stay, and will never let us go.
Dawn Chapman, written today at11:37 am.