So considering I am on holiday, I don’t seem to have stopped.

On Monday I cleaned the inside of the van from top to bottom, and tired myself out, yesterday Paul and I scrubbed the outside, which had a nice green algae growing on it, now that really was hard work. And then today I have been to my Nan’s and been trimming her lawn, while Paul has been mowing it.

I am not one to moan but my nan’s garden is huge, and there is so much to do in it, I really respect my mum for trying to keep on top of it, she must be so tired after all that.

Anyways I felt light headed yesterday and today, had to take a break and sit down through doing my jobs, guess they are a bit harder than my job, as don’t feel that bad at work.

Today I had to come home and lie down, I felt really bad. I still do, feel like my heart isn’t happy. I have had a piece of fish from the chip shop today, even though I ate it in two parts, but up to now haven’t had anything else, so I am going to try as I know I need the energy, as we really did work hard today.

Tomorrow I am not doing anything apart from resting. I need to. I can’t be so busy all of my holiday or when I go back to work after being to the hospital I defiantly won’t be able to handle it.

TO be honest I don’t know how I am at the moment, but in some ways I can’t afford to not work.

Do you think I should just take the time off, or should I try and make an effort? I know my health comes first, but I suppose I can only see what happens, I only have so much energy, and at the moment, it’s running real low…….

I hope everyone is well tonight, and having a good evening.

Talk back, miss you all. Dawn xx

I don’t know what has happened this week, but I know everything has sort of gone wrong, everyone has cancelled on me, and let me down, am now going to be stuck at home today as Michelle is ill and cant go riding, I know its bad she is ill and wouldn’t do it otherwise, but after Chantelle and Sian cancelling on me on the same night the other day, am just feeling a bit fed up.

So am stuck here and defiantly going to be annoying everyone, and chatting to everyone who’s willing…

Dawn x

Money is a very hard earned thing, and some people really do work hard for it.

Now as a writer, I have sent some of my work to a publishing agency in New York as you well know, but I was sceptical at first, and now even more so…

The thing is they are asking for an independent critique to be done, which is no big problem, but would cost about £60, so at the moment yes it is, money isn’t that tight, but if its juts a scam I am not going to be very happy about it.

I do want to trust them; I feel that everything they have sent to me has been ok and professional, but is it just professional in getting money out of someone.

I am wondering whether to go for it, and say sod it it’s only money, and give them a go, they could be genuine and really want to help, and it could be the break I need. It’s not much different from paying a reading fee for a publishing house, but then you don’t get anything in return.

Please help me with this one, I am so unsure of whether to give it a shot.

Then of course there is everything else that comes with being successful, do I really want it, I can’t say that I do want any sort of attention at the moment, or in the future, as so many people are just too faced, and there aren’t many genuine ones around.

HELP

Other than blowing up my printer last night and looking through this contract, I haven’t done so much, been lazy… well had a lot to think about and of course, oh yeah started on Flouroxatine, anti depressant, so there are a few side effects, like me wanting to go to sleep right now…..

Take care all, and please reply, could do with some advice…

Dawn xx

Yeah it’s miserable in work at the moment, but hey, it will get better I hope.

I have put in a claim against my company for when I fell over and broke my hand. I am hoping that having a solicitor on their case will make them do the health and safety jobs I have asked them to… Yeah right, and I am dreaming…

Anyways, had a bit of a crap day, never ate much and when I got home felt awful, am going camping in a few weeks, and the need to look my best is doing my head in, I am only camping for goodness sake but my ed is telling me I cant eat until after the holiday.

Last week it was because Paul was going away and then was away, will it ever end…

I have tried to eat a little tonight, and have done some exercise, but not too much, I only do toning excersises now, as anything else I get obsessed with.

I love swimming, but can’t do it unless I go seven days a week for an hour or more, and it really wasn’t doing me any good.

I also have some other news, after writing to our local paper about the polish workers in our area I have had a response, maybe they will do a story for me, I hope so. As the girls I work with are amazing and the woman they work for is a bitch.

I will post it up after this what I wrote, please read as it’s not nice what they have to put up with.

Dawn xx

8^th May

I am writing to you regarding abuse of Polish workers in our local area, by a company called.
I do not know all of the law regarding workers in our country but I know when people are being taken advantage of.

I have a friend who was working for this company, (now she is just working with me not for them ) She broke her leg in 10th November 2006 and the agency she was working for paid her sick pay, but then still had to pay for her accommodation and travel to work £42.50 when she wasn’t even going to work.
Some of her friends who were working over Christmas were forced to work 100 hours plus in one week, one guy 110 hours, in one week, when he said ‘no he was tired’ she said ‘no you must or you will go back to Poland’ This man and my friend were forced to work in terrible conditions. My friend’s leg was only just out of cast and she was forced to work in one day 16hours, when she asked could she go home, she told ‘No’ that week she worked nearly 70 hours.
They are only paid minimum wage at £5.05 (not sure of last year) and this is for the full 70 hours, they do not get time and a half, and sometimes if they don’t understand about their clocking on card they don’t get paid at all.

Also if you don’t do what is asked and you do go home, via any means you can, you are left the following week without enough work for you to even pay for your accommodation.

And sometimes they really don’t get paid, at least until the following week. A young mother last year wanted to go home to visit her young children and because she didn’t get her wages couldn’t go, and continued to work until she was paid, only because she wanted to keep her job open, and not cause any problems.

The accommodation they live in is awful, they live in caravans at the back of this large farm, the caravans most of them have 2 bedrooms, but actually sleep 6-10 people. These people who are strangers, start work each at different times come home at different times. The caravans have holes in them, and are rotting and they aren’t provided with anything in them, they visit our local car boot sales to try and get by.
When they make friends in the places they work, they aren’t allowed visitors, and boyfriends are a definite no.

They do have houses in which some of them can live. I haven’t been in any of the houses, but I do know, a young girl who worked with us last year, was told the house she was in wasn’t a public house, after her boy friend came to visit, so she moved out.
I would like this investigated because these people should not be allowed to take other peoples lives and force them into working when they really can’t, i.e.: too tired, what if something happened to them in work near a machine…. It really isn’t fair.
These people have families in Poland and in England with them, and they are being treated like slaves, I thought England was beyond things like this.

Anybody any ideas,

Umm what to put lol

Well how about what I have done today, My hubby woke me at 6 to go fishing and as he was shouting at the cat I shouted at him, so got up at seven cleaned my caravan from top to bottom then went into southport shopping, went to lidle then waterstones, then to farmfoods, and summerfield.

I spent £150 and now am exhausted, but at least the cupboards are full and the freezer now I can relax and carry on learning some more polish, for when I visit my friends in february.

Umm, I have my best bud coming up in a bit, for a lunch date, shes been in new york and so havent had chance to see her, and I am so looking forward to it.

Havent got a lot else to say, Am going to try and put a photo up.

Love Dawn
xx

Just a quick one before I go out, sian has just left and we have had a great time catching up, we talked about a few of our friends and the decisions surrounding them. As far as friends go they cant be freinds with us anymore.

Some people, ask too much from you, what i need in a friend is someone who will listen to me, and help me when I am down, someone to socialise with and enjoy myself with, someone to be a great part of my life, and these people have been dragging us both down.

I feel bad in a way for sian as its so hard for her to say things, but her friend has been railroading her into doing things she doesnt want to and the last 6mths of her life have been hell and her friend hasnt really cared about that.

I am hoping now that we can both move forward and start to enjoy life for what it has to offer… which is a lot, yey.

Am looking forward to seeing sian again, we made plans to meet in another week, i think we deserve a good n ight out…

Anyways I should finish doing what i started this morning and then get ready to go out, and get nice and drunk…

Catch you later